Voyage on a paper boat

Dare to QUIT...

Thinking that I hated my work till the core, I decided to quit my job then my life became worst ever when I just said my decision out.
Before I was saying my decision of quitting my job, I had seen my own options for the further steps.I have seen two option one is going for a coaching to do masters next year and the other one is try some government sector jobs.
The first option is not as easy as I say because first of all getting money for a coaching of about fifty thousand bucks from a middle class family like us is really a difficult task, and moreover all the institute had already was almost half way done with their work and all the co-age people are ready for the war now I guess.But myself in the middle of nowhere really irritated to go to office daily and doing the same work again and again. I just felt everytime my work should be a challenge to me,everyday I should be able to feel the satisfaction of my job. But apart from that I got a work which is like a school guy with three months trianing can do and apart from that we need to monitor closely for 24 hours a day and seven days a week, which means in a month everyone should work one saturday and one sunday and we just need to sit simply online waiting for a guy to say go ahead, I was literally irritated by the work I am doing.So the option of taking a masters trianing is like raiding on something like a paper boat, but my zeal in me said u have the capability to cope up, but for the first time because of this IT guys mindset I doubted my zeal.
The second option which trying for some government sector organizations was of like working with a jobs which are in numbers but the applicants will be in lakhs, By my coincidence I read that morning paper saying for a sweeping job in an office four hundred B.tech graduates has applied.Everyone out there is discussing about it and this one example is enough whats the situation out there.
But right now to satisfy myself I need to move out of my comfort zone of a line called IT employee.I need to somehow achieve something, I cant sit there and work like this and wait for my turn to get ONSITE and marry a girl and I dont want to rub my IT life tensions on her and make myself a psychopath.Ofcourse money is important but its not life according to me but in the same case it is needed atleast to satisfy my basic needs.
So what to do??? I was thinking this days, spent sleepless nights also.
I got really frustrated a day that some mistake which I did has been shown as a reason that I am unfit for my work which I am doing now, I love to do coding but I am here doing some dumb work of filling excel sheets, ticking some parts, closing the requested tickets and waiting for work sitting simply infront of a computer, I was decided on the very next day to quit my work, but I havent resolved yet whats my next step is going to be, but however I decided to quit.
The next day mrng when I spoke to my parents, I blasted this bomb of quitting my job, my father just said a single sentence "your life, your decision"( I didn't understood my dad words at all, I dono whether he gave freedom to me nor I didn't understood whether he is speaking in anger or disappointment). My mom I know started crying and she didn't told anything and call was done, I decided to speak to my manager on this but God has kept some other twist for me today.
When I just reached office, I started getting calls from everyone from my sister to some distant relative who is doing the same dumb work what I am doing. My sister told "why are u making parents suffer again they just now started to laugh in their entire life because, me and you are happliy settled but sudden ahh why are u telling like this".
I dont have any words to say, I just said I will think about it. The calls kept on coming like a flow and as usual there is no work and it became a gud time pass for me.
Atlast one distant relative who is elder than me and went to so called ONSITE and just now returned seems he is having a car, about to buy a flat in his city and getting ready for marriage, ("I Guess these car, flat and marriage are mandatory criteria after coming from ONSITE").
He called ma and asked "Have you gone mad or what?With in below one year how u can decide whether u are not suitable for job, wait till your onsite offer then think, else jump to some other company, if u feel this company won't suit you and you will get a hike in salary also("Yes jumping from one company to other is very common here and the recruting company will offer some gud amount of hike also, It will be comedy you know like its people will take it like quiet common thing").
Atlast he told a matter that "Suppose if u quit now and go na all the haters ("Relatives, neighbours") will say that company only sent him out, it seems he is not worth it, see he is telling he will go and study again".
That call changed me and that night I slept without asking anything to manager about my resignation.
I understood I DONT HAVE THE DARE TO QUIT, because I dont have the dare to face anyone by resigning to my job.
So atlast I DIDN'T QUIT MY JOB.....