Truculent [girlxgirl]

Get Well Soon

After asking around, I found her place. I banged on the door. Renee opened the door and I pushed my way in.

"Cass? What-?!"

I kissed her.

She slapped me, "What the hell?! What the fuck are you doing?! I'm no booty call Cass!"

"I fucked her!"

"What-?"

"But it was after you. That bitch of a doctor came onto me when I was already wounded. I never played you or anything I was just hurt that day. I didn't know that she had talked to you afterwards."

"Okay and? Is that all you came here for?"

"...", I lowered my head.

"Cass, it's been months. I'm over it now. I don't care."

"You can tell"

"What are you talking about now?"

"S-since the war there hasn't been a chance for a Ba to take down a Pierce. No one but you and my doctor know. You can tell. Then I will be executed. Then the Ba family will be glorified. If it were anyone else, I'd run but... If you asked me not to... I'll stay. I'll stay and-", she slapped me. The force of such a slap along with the surprise had silenced me.

"Get out!", she pointed to the door.

And back out into the rain I went. I couldn't very well object. My motives are unclear to even me. I came there to tell her that but the moment I stepped into her room, I couldn't help myself.

I arrived in my room and touched my lips. Her embrace is all that I yearned for. I thought about her. That night. My pants contracted. "Oh for fuck's sake", I opened the door and stepped right back out into the cold rain. Nothing like a cold shower.

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"What happened Cassy?!", Lucia exclaimed.

"Nothing"

"Nothing?! You look like hot crap!"

She put her face close and I jumped away. The class hadn't began yet.

"Relax. I'm checking your temperature", she pulled my head close and put her forehead on my own. The coolness of her forehead was soothing. "You've got a fever".

"Oh, well, uh. Oh well. I'm just going to have to bare through it until the end of class", I put on my boxing gloves.

"You should ask the teacher to leave"

"No. Of course she'd let me leave. I'm the decedent of Pierce, which is all the more reason not to ask her. I'm not Artemis. I want to get by on my own strength, not her's"

"That's very noble of you. Suit yourself", she giggled.

"Welcome to your defense and offense studies. You will be learning the basics of self defense by the end of the semester but let's start with some strength workouts"

We stood in front of our designated punching bags and went at it.

I thought about how stupid I was with every punch. I went to her house. I kissed her. I gave her all the reassurance that she needs to have me executed. But of course none of this would've happened if I just didn't make love to her. If I hadn't told her that I love her. If I hadn't stayed over that night. If I didn't so that to her. She's right. I am a monster. A monster. Monster!

The punching back came back around and, in my weakened state, knocked me to the ground. Everyone gawked at me.

"I-I'm sorry", I smiled and stood up, with a wobble.