When We Meet Again (Kiani)

Sixty One

jordan

I didn't know what to tell him. It was as if his mind had been wiped completely clean. He didn't remember anything that happened. Not one single thing.

We sat in silence for the longest time. He watched as I opened my mouth to speak, but before any words escaped into the air I shut it.

The only sound was the consistent beeping of the heart monitor and the soft tick of the clock. Will kept trying to make eye contact, but I everted and kept my eyes down.

The silence wasn't uncomfortable, nor was it comfortable. The silence was tolerable. Thoughts danced through my head about what to say. How could I explain to this innocent boy that he almost killed someone and almost died within a few hours?

I couldn't bring myself to make eye contact with him. Tears filled my eyes.

This is all your fault, Jordan.

No. Not again. Please. Not the voice again.

You should have left him alone. You should've stayed in Seattle, Jordan. None of this would have happened if you had just stayed away like he wanted you to.

I shook my head to try and make it go away.

You should have listened to him.

The voice was right. I dropped Will's hand that I didn't realise I was holding, "I'm so sorry, Will." I mumbled as tears streamed down my face. I pushed the chair back and stood up.

He watched me as I stood, "Jordan?" he asked, his voice wavering as he choked back tears.

"This is all my fault." I whispered and headed for the door. I placed my hand on the doorknob and turned slightly to look at him, "I made you into this mess. Before you met me you were healthy and your life wasn't in danger."

I shifted on my feet, "After that first fight I saw how much I had hurt you. I promised myself that I would never hurt you like that again. I-I broke that promise."

Shocker. You've never been one for keeping promises.

"The truth is, I've broken every promise I've ever made." I forced out a dry laugh.

His face was plagued with confusion and tears. I looked down at my shoes and squeezed my eyes shut. Tears fell on to the floor, forming small puddles.

I shook my head slowly, "Everything bad that has ever happened to you since pax prime two thousand fourteen has been because of me." I grimaced and opened the door.

"No, Jordan. Please, you can't leave me. Not again." he lifted his hands to his face and pressed his palms to his eyes, "Not again. Not again. Not again. Please not again." he mumbled and shook his head frantically.

"I'm sorry, Will." I said as my voice cracked from the tears, "I have to go. I can't hurt you anymore."

"Jordan, please. Don't go." he begged, his eyes red and puffy, "I need you."

I sighed, "You're better off without me."

It doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure that one out, Chief.

"SHUT UP!" I screamed and pressed on my temples, more tears forming. His eyes welled up with tears.

"No matter what, I still love you." I half smiled, "Nothing will make me stop loving you."

"I love you too." he whimpered.

I turned on my heel and walked out the door, as I closed it behind me I gave him a small smile of reassurance, "We'll see each other someday. When we meet again."

fin.