Avenir // tyler joseph

seven // let my dreams consume me

--Courtney's P.O.V--

"I am never wearing a crop top again," I muttered under my breath, slipping on a sweatshirt as Pierre chuckled from his position on the bed. Our cabin was quite big compared to the others and it was only because we had three children that we needed to take care of, so we were allowed to have the biggest cabin aboard. Hayley made sure there was already a crib big enough to fit two boys inside the room when we arrived along with a twin bed that Séverine was currently sleeping in.

So far the cruise was going better than I thought it would. I had barely thought about the water the entire time and I was glad that other things were occupying my mind. Paramore's set was breathtaking and the fans loved the fact that they performed a lot of old songs from All We Know is Falling along with Hallelujah from Riot. However, I could barely pay attention because the twins refused to settle down and Tyler was still lingering in the back of my mind.

I had finally acknowledged Tyler after four years and I instantly felt a weight leave my shoulders as I sat down next to Pierre afterwards. Tyler didn't look miserable like I thought he would. He looked quite healthy and happy. He, however; seemed awkward towards me and when Josh brought Benji and Bowser up, his eyes looked like they were about to pop out of his head. Truthfully, I didn't blame him for feeling confused.

He probably thought that Pierre and I had learned our lesson when Séverine was born, but instead he found me four years later with a set of twin boys and probably thought was crazy for getting pregnant once again. Benji and Bowser were not unplanned like Séverine was. They were something that we wanted and after a few tries, our wish was granted.

It was just that I was twenty-three years old with three children and some people just looked at me like I was insane when they figured out about that little fact. Pierre and I weren't married and we had been together for almost five years. That was not considered normal. Pierre's own mother practically looked down on me until Séverine turned three because in her eyes it was my fault for ruining her son's life and I guess that was true. Sometimes I could tell that she still wasn't fond of me no matter how much Pierre said that wasn't true.

"So, how did it feel talking to Tyler today?" Pierre asked, softly as I laid down next to him, releasing a sigh from my lungs. "Was he happy to see you as much as Josh was? The boys absolutely loved his hair and wouldn't stop pulling on it."

I smiled, leaning my head against his chest. His arm wrapped around my body, pulling me a little bit closer. "It felt okay to talk to Tyler. He didn't seem to hate me and he looked healthy. He didn't really say much and when Josh brought Benji and Bowser up, he automatically became fascinated with them."

"He had a look of confusion on his face at first and it was probably because he didn't know that I was pregnant for a second time. Also, he became speechless when he figured out Bowser's name. His actual words were "Bowser? Like the Mario character?"

Pierre chuckled, stroking my hair. "Hey, at least our children have different names. You've always hated your name because it was too common."

"I know, but maybe we went too crazy when we decided on Bowser. I don't want parents or kids to look down on him when he gets into school just because his name is quite original."

I never wanted my kids to face any type of bullying and if they did, I wasn't afraid to step in and defend them. Being bullied was one of the worst feelings in the world. Victims felt helpless, powerless; some even ended their lives because of it. I never wanted my children to feel that low ever in their lives.

"Mon amour, listen, I know that you are just being a mother and worrying is your job, but based on Bowser's attitude now, he'll be able handle himself when he is older. Besides, he has Benji."