Broken Boy, |Phan & KicktheStickz|

.Chapter 33.

(Chapter Dedicated to thephanwriter as she's my lil cupcake!)

Phil's POV.

Break time soon rolled around and I saw Dan about to head into the canteen. I giggle and run up to him before wrapping my arms around him. His slim figure fitting perfectly In my arms. He places his hand on top of mine and I smirk as I kiss his neck. His flower crown falling off.

"Phil! My flower crown!" He squeaks and I laugh and shrug. "So? It's only a flower crown." I say and he looks at me wide eyed. "Just a flower crown are you kidding me this is my god." He says as he bends down to pick it up. He was about to put it on his head but I stopped him.

"No no let me!" I say before grabbing it off him and placing it on his head. I Stoke down his cheek before leaning in and kiss him gently, he kisses back immediately and I smile into the kiss. I love Dan so much.

I only pulled away because I needed aid and he just smiled at me. "Why hello there beautiful." He says and I smirk and shake my head. "I'm the ugly one, your the beautiful one." I say and he shakes his head "Your the hot one. I'm the beautiful one." He says and I shrug. "I guess that could work. Only for you though." I laugh and grab his waist. I push him into the wall and kiss him gently.

"Dan! Phil! Stop making out and come sit with us!" Jack says and I squint my eyes at him in a playful jokey manner and he just laughs and shakes his head. "Can't I kiss my boyfriend in peace!" I say and he shakes his head. I just look at hi and he smiles before pecking me on the lips and sitting down. He pats the spot next to him and I sit down next to him. He was sitting next to his brother PJ.

"What are you guys going to do for Easter holiday than?" Alfie asks and I shrug. "Most probably kiss Dan all the time." I say and he blushes and everyone laughs. I smirk at him and pick him up and place him on my lap.

We listen to what everyone is going to do in the holidays and I just laugh at some of the ridiculous ones such as "sky dive" and "bungee jump" but the bell cut Joe's conversation off with everyone and he groans.

"Well I'll see you all at lunch." I say and they all smile and nod. "Alright bye Phil!" They all say as I have a different class then everyone else and I walked in the opposite direction of what they where heading.

As I was walking through the empty corridors I heard whispering and stopped to look around and find out who it was. No one seemed to be there so I just shrugged and kept walking until I felt my body get slammed against a wall. A boy was there and he held my arms down to the wall.

I saw fear flicker in his eyes at my appearance and I smile. "What, you scared at me." I say and he shakes his head. I push him off me and grab his t shirt before pulling him back  into the wall he pushed me in and his body hit the wall intensely.

"Don't you fucking dare touch me again!" I say. I've had it with fucking bullies. "I'll steal Dan." He says and a chord sprang in my heart as he said that. No... "I won't let you fucking touch him." I spit at him but suddenly felt weaker as I took in his appearance.

Blond sticky up hair. Blue eyes. Tanned body and a lot more mussel then me. I felt intimidated by his looks. He looked.

Skinny

Something that I will never be, "You having second thoughts now?" He says and I shake my head immediately and threaten to punch him. "Go near him. Your dead." "You couldn't fucking hurt a fly." He says and I laugh darkly.

I could hurt myself.

That's a lot more then a fucking fly you twat.

"You don't fucking know me" I hiss and he laughs. "And I'll get Dan to forget about you." He says before walking off. Giving me on last smirk before turning the corner. My hart immediately felt a strong sense of pain and I clutched my heart.

Dan might leave me.

Phil what the fuck why does my heart hurt?

I think about blocking my thoughts as I walked backwards into the wall and collapsed down it.

Phil don't you dare!

"I'm so sorry Dan.. Block thoughts." And then something felt like it removed itself from my brain for a little while.

Dan. He's going to stop loving me. He's gunna hate me. Why am I so fucking ugly to even keep someone for 2 weeks. I'm nothing compared to him, I'm a punk loser with hideous tattoos and disgusting piercings. He has blonde hair and he's fucking muscular, and I'm fucking nothing apart from a fat loser.

Dans going to... Leave me.

I curl my legs into my chest as I hug my needs tightly. I kept staring at the floor as tears well up in my eyes. Threatening to leave from my disgusting blue eyes. And they did. Tears started trickling down my face and it terrified me to know that my boyfriend will turn away from me.

My arms started itching and my eyes widen. Did he trigger me? I haven't cut in a long time. I've been focusing on my weight. A lot these past couple of days. I stand up from my pre location and run down the halls and barge out of the double doors in the school and then the gates.

Running home.

I reached my home in a matter of minutes and I open the surprisingly unlocked door and slammed it shut. I see on the wall a note and walk up to it. I pick it up and start to read it.

'Me and your dad are gone for the week. Take care. P.S I made dinner for tonight and I've left money on the counter for you to get a take away.'

I sigh as i felt anger wash over me. I couldn't be bothered to go back to school. I was already late for that lesson anyway. "AHHHHHH" I scream into the house as I punch the wall before breaking down fully, leaning against the wall that I just punched and sobbing my heart out.

I stamp my foot as my eye liner started running down my face and I run upstairs into my room and shut the door forcefully. Causing a louder bang then intended. I cry out and run into my bathroom and open the cabinet. Searching for my razor.

I sigh in relief as I find it and immediately collapse on the floor for the second time today and roll the sleeve of my jumper up. Tears pouring down my face as I didn't hesitate to cut 15 new deep lined into my wrist. And the word "worthless" was soon carved into my milky skin.

My ugly milky skin.

The Crimson substance trickled down my arm in little lines. All neat but some crooked and connecting onto other bands as it tricked down the few tattoos that I have on my arm. One of the skulls on my arm looked deadly as the blood trickled down my arm and into the skulls mouth. I just sigh as instant relief and content washed into my bloodstream. Overlapping the sadness.

But the sadness was still there.

It always will be.

I just sigh as I watch the light catch some of the beads of blood and smile. "Ive missed you" I whisper to The blade before standing up and washing my arm off.

I walk over to my scale machine and the number was too high. It beat my previous goal. But it's too high. I hate it. It almost made me throw up as I stepped off the machine and walked over to my bed. Feeling tired after crying.

I didn't bother washing my face off as I fell into a dreamless slumber.

A slumber which I wish was endless.
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Hello guys. I hope you enjoyed this chapter, if you did then please comment and if not then I'm so sorry! Hope you will like the next one.

What do you think of all this Malarkey of the new kid trying to steal Dan. It's horrible right! Anyway I'll let you go! Talk to you all soon! X

Love you allXxX
Sammie=3