Broken Boy, |Phan & KicktheStickz|

.Chapter 46.

(The ending is quite soon guys. I hope you enjoy this chapter and please comment and stuff and see you next chapter people! X

Love you allXxX
Sammie=3
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Phil's POV.

It's been two days since Dan beat up the bullies and everyone is raving about it in school. Telling him he's a bad ass and shit which is fine by me but he really didn't need to do that.

I don't deserve happiness anyway, I buried my mums body in my back garden and everyone has been really nice to me but I just don't know if I can take this any more.

I was walking home by myself and noticed a really pretty waterfall. I decided to go and check it out more and when I got there, there was a massive bridge. A really fucking big bridge. I can't tell you how tempted I was, to just go up and raise my arms up and then jump and fall, feel all of the adrenalin corse through my veins as I fall of the sharp rocks that water crashed against beneath me.

It was too quick, I needed something stronger, more powerful. Something that would hurt more, so I ran, I ran back home up my stairs until I got to my room. I grabBed a piece of paper and wrote a letter.

Dear whoever reads this fucked up letter.

I can't take it anymore. I don't want to deal with the voices in my head anymore. So this is my finale letter, I've wrote this letter so many times but this is the final because I am going to succeed, I need... To succeed.

I love you mum, I love you. And I'm so sorry I left the house. Why did I do that. I'm so stupid, that's why I'm doing this today.

Chris and PJ.
You have helped me for a very long time. Your both so amazing together and I really hope your going to stay together forever, thank you so much for trying to help me, for trying. You might of not succeeded. But you truly have tried and your the most best friends anyone could ask for.

Jack and Mark.
You know my darkest secret, and you where so amazing and helpful and.. And just so welcoming and supportive to me, stay together, you need each other, you tried helping as well, it didn't turn out the way you wanted but you helped me and I'm enter ally grateful. Thank you.

All of my friends,
Thank you for helping me, excepting me. Not caring about what/who I am, just thank you for being... Accepting.

And too Dan, 

I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, please don't do anything because of me okay. This little speech is for you. Just remember too see yourself as a brave, confident, beautiful person okay.

I really don't have much time babe. Your coming over in an half an hour.
I have a feeling this is the last letter,
Because there is only one thing left to tell you.
It isn't to go down memory lane or make  you can take care of yourself without any help from me.
It's to tell you how much You moved me...
Changed me.
And for that I am externally grateful.
Literally.
If you can promise me anything, that whenever your sad, or unsure, and you lose complete faith. That you will try and see me through my eyes.
You made my entire life amazing again. You made my life and I am just one chapter in yours.
So here it comes, and I know you can do it Dan. I know.
Don't be afraid to ever fall in love again.

Goodbye everyone, Thank you so much for trying....

P.s. Dan.... I will always love you.