Broken Boy, |Phan & KicktheStickz|

.Chapter 20.

Dans POV.

I enter the room slowly and I just stood there. In the doorway, Not believing the sight of him. I've known him for a few days and already am so close to him it's unreal. I slowly Walked up to him, my hands shaking as both of his wrists where covered in massive bandages with blood slowly seeping through and a tube up his nose.

This sight made me feel so stupid. So worthless that I can't do anything to save him. I am just useless, can't do anything right. I almost fucking killed him for god sakes. Im so fucking stupid. I hate myself!

"Dan? Earth to Daniel!" Chris says and I shake my head. Slipping away from my trance. I look at PJ and his eyes are wide. Staring at my hand. I look down and see that my nails
Have made scratch marks on my wrist, Chris didn't notice but PJ certainly did.

My phone buzzed and I opened it up to see that there is a text from PJ.

PJ: Why Are you scratching your wrist? X

My eyes widen as I look at PJ. I see tears brimming in his eyes wand I text back the truth.

Dan: I feel so worthless, like I haven't done anything to help him, I don't know if I can handle it anymore. I'm sorry PJ. I'm a failure to society.

I see him text me back.

PJ: your not worthless. Don't worry, stay strong for Phil please! I love you! X

I text him back saying thank you and love you to and he nods. I smile at how close mine and PJ's relationship is. He would always help me if I felt sad, even if I couldn't help him, u would at least try.

I check my phone to see what the time was and I saw that it was 3 in the morning. "Guys, you should go, it's really late. I'll be fine I promise." I say and they nod, standing up and giving me hugs. "Tell me if he wakes up okay." Chris says and I nod before they leave the room.

Leaving me alone with Phil.

I look at his piercings, his snake bites and the piercings on his nose. His eyebrow bar and his dark eyes. He isn't moving at all, staying deadly still, I just shook my head. I done this to him

I slowly got up and started pacing around the room. Horrible thoughts drifting back into my mind. I started mumbling 'What if he doesn't wake up. I'm so stupid. Why does he have to do that? I'm so fucking Worthless! He is truly broken. I don't know what to do anymore.'

'Should I cut?'

That's when I stopped doing anything. My hand slowly rising to my mouth as shock over took me. "I haven't said that for six months." I whisper and I shake my head. "I can't do that, I can't..." I whisper to myself slowly.

I look down at my wrist and just started sobbing. "I'm a failure anyway. Twat! I fucking hate myself!.... I'm sorry Phil" I whisper the last part, I kiss his hand and just sit down. My head spinning slightly.

I look in the mirror opposite me. And I see fat. A new feature that I've only just noticed, Am I that fat?

Holy Shit. Of course your that fat, you should stop eating. It's your fault Phil almost died tonight, selfish freak.

The faint voices say. My eyes widening in shock. "I haven't heard you in six months. Please leave me." I whisper and they all just laugh and bicker on about me not eating.

Maybe I should.. Stop. Eating.

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Phil's POV,
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I couldn't see anything but darkness but I can hear every word as clear as day, I try and move but nothing works. PJ and Chris left about 5 minutes ago, I'm not sure and I can hear footsteps going around on the floor opposite me.

I start to hear Dan mumble things that I didn't want him to every say about himself. 'What if he doesn't wake up. I'm so stupid. Why does he have to do that? I'm so fucking worthless! He is truly broken. I don't know what to do anymore.'

Than I heard them three words which made my spine turn. Which made me just want to wake up and hug him. To tell him everything will be okay. To tell him that he needs to stay strong. But I couldn't.

'Should I Cut.'
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