Broken Boy, |Phan & KicktheStickz|

.Chapter 25.

Phil's POV.

(Phil's Back Home now. I know it's kinda weird but being in a hospital is really not helping me at the min. Hope that's Okay!!! XxX)

I don't think you want to know my name

I say to Dan. This could ruin everything..

'Please tell me'

I hear his voice echo through my mind. It'll ruin everything for me. He will hate me. I will just be a fuck up with no friends. Who would like em anyway. I'm fat, obsessive, ugly, Disgusting.

'Phil.... Is that you?'

I hear his voice echo through my mind and that's when the tears started rolling .

Yes

I just couldn't feel anything. Why am I upset? At Least it's a guy, right? But. I don't deserve anyone. No one deserves me. Ugh.

I get up and go downstairs, I run into the kitchen and pour myself a half a glass of water. To scared that even water would put up to much calories. I phones Chris to ask him a very important question.

Ring. Ring. Ri- "Hello. Are you okay" I hear Chris's voice through my crappy phone.

"Urm.. Yeah, I need to ask you a question." I say. Yawning slightly. "What is it?" He ask and I take a deep breath.

"Is there any way to block of thoughts so the other cant hear them." I whisper and he sighs. "Yes but you can only do it for two hours a day. Then they can hear your thoughts all the time. But you just have to say 'Block Thoughts' and then they will get blocked. And if you want to unblock them you just say 'Unblock thoughts'" I smile,saying thank you before hanging up.

'Phil. Never block your thoughts to me.' I hear dans Voice plead but I jaunt shake my head.

No promises.

I take a tiny sip of my water. Shivering slightly before pouring the rest down the drain. I hate my life. Bullies fucking made me like this. And other people. I felt anger suddenly boil up inside me and I stamp my foot on the dirty kitchen tiles.

I just feel so weak. So much anger and sadness boiling up and it kills me. I forget that Dan can hear my thoughts but I didn't care. I punch the wall. It not giving it a dent.

The only reason why my Step Dad got this place Is because of the hard walls and sound proof house so no one can hear me sc- I can't think of him again. Not after everything that he has done. Just because of my mum getting divorced and marrying my step Dad doesn't mean that I have to get beaten up for it constantly for it. Especially my fucking step Dad beating up his step son is so easy for him, and my mum.

I felt like screaming but no sound was coming out. I just felt weak. I look down at my stomach and tears just roll down my cheeks. "Why did I even have a sip of that water. It'll just make me More fat. I can see it on me now."

'PHIL, YOUR NOT FAT. TRUST ME YOUR LIKE SKIN AND BONE.' I hear Dan shout at me and I flinch, I trail down my down my cupboard as my knees tuck up to my chest. Silent sobs escaping my mouth.

'Phil. I really want you to know that you are not worthless, fat or Ugly. You are beautiful. I promise you. And all them bullies and your step Dad should not get into your head. But it does and it hurts me just as much as it hurts you.'

My eyes widen as he said things about my step Dad,

No one was ment to Know anything. Shit.. Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck. I think back to when Chris said that I could say to block my thoughts.

'Phil! Do not block your thoughts Ple-

"Block thoughts." I say and then his voice went of, signalling that I can't here him and he can't no longer hear my thoughts aswell.

"UGHHH I'm such a fuck up." I sigh as my hands hug my knees. Me being adopted and my Fake Dad Beating me up. Bullies also hurting me just.. Kills you. Slowly. But defiantly painfully. I sit up and look around my house. I suddenly thinking of my mum, realising that they are away.

I call her and she picks up straight away.

"Hey Phil. Are you okay? Why are you phoning me at 4 in the morning?" She asks and I blanked her questioning immediately. "Why are you up at this time in the morning? hang on a minute." I asks do I hear tiny sobs escaping my mothers mouth.

I take the phone away from my face and I think for a minute before whispering "unblock thoughts." I could immediately hear Dans questioning but pulled my phone to my face again. Hearing my mothers sobs made Dan instantly go quiet.

"What happened mum, what did he do to you?" I ask and I just hear muffled sobs. "He.. He started arguing with me. He got drunk and left only coming back with a girl and having sex with her right infront of me. Before throwing her out and beating me up. He called me worthless and a horrible wife." A fresh set of Tears started rolling down my cheeks again as she continued.

"He pinned me against the wall and started kissing me roughly. I didn't want to kiss him which made him more angry and he slapped me across the cheek. P-Phil... He raped me." He whispers and my hand reaches my mouth. I can hear Dan gasp and I just couldn't say anything.

'Phil, are you okay?' I hear him whisper in my head but I just didn't have the motivation to answer, "You need to get rid of him mum, please." I whisper into the phone but I can hear her shaking her head.

"I can't. It's to late. He said that he would kill you if we split up. I don't want my baby boy dead. Your to beautiful to be dead." She sobs into the phone and I can hear Dan saying that her words where true but I didn't believe any of them...

Why should I when more people call me ugly then beautiful.

I just... Hope my mum is okay.
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