Why Not?

Chapter 3

The next day of course went by so slow. I honestly felt like it was never going to end, but luckily I was already in my last class. Ms. Smith said he wanted us to get straight to our projects, so we won't have any reasons to be late on it. So when I got in their I decided to just go and sit beside Javier. He seemed and little down, but he looked like he put a fake smile when he saw me come closer to him.

"So Javier are you ready to get started on the project. Oh yeah are you still down for coming over after school today?"

"Oh yeh about that I don't think I can come, my mom is a bit sick so I have to go home and take care of her."

"Oh. I'm sorry to hear that Javier, I hope she gets better and don't sweat about it, you can come over another day so we can work on it."

"Yeah thanks."

"No problem. So I guess we can get started on it right now if you like."

"Yeah sure."

I don't know what was up with Javier, he didn't really seem like his self today. Well I don't really know how he really is, but it seemed like something was really bothering him. It seemed like he had a lot on his mind.

We had about 5 minutes left in class before we left. I didn't want to sound rude or anything or seem like getting into his business, but I just wanted to see if he was okay.

"Um Javier are you okay? We really don't know each other, but it seems like you have a lot on your mind."

"Oh it's nothing, I'm just tired, that's all."

"Are you sure?"

"Yeah I'm positive, I'm just ready to go home."

"Well okay. Me too, I'm tried of work."

"Yeah your right."

And with that it was time to go, Javier just ran off. I didn't even see where he went. Their was really something that was wrong with him, but I just couldn't put my hand on it.

Javier P.O.V.

I hurried up and tried to get out of that school fast so she wouldn't see me. I didn't want her to see me like this, I'm emotionally unstable and I don't want anything of this for her. She really was a unique person that I wanted to get know more about, more I just didn't want her to leave to much about. I just don't want to get close with her or with anyone because sooner or later they will leave or I will lose. So I will not get close with anyone, ever.

I hurried up and got home to go check on my to see if she was okay. My mom has cancer and she has been very sick since she found out she has it. She found out about a year ago, like right after my dad left us. He left because he had another family and that he didn't want to be with us anymore. I didn't care that he left, he was always a jerk to us, he honestly never really cared for us. But it teared my mom and little sister up, they were so sad for a long time, it's like they went into depression mode. So finding out that my mom had cancer made me so mad, I felt like it was my dad's fault because he left. My mom is doing so what better with her depression, but she has been very sick once she found out she had it.

My little sister, Maria, is 7 so about a 10 year difference because I just turned 17. She and my mom means the world to me. I try to cook and clean and take care of them. I guess you can say I'm the man of the house. My mom wasn't able to take care of us, so I had to step up. So I got a job on the weekend with my uncle. He goes around cutting the grass for people, painting houses, and any other thing that can get you money. So it really does help us a lot. My mom didn't want me to get a job because she wanted me to stay focused on school, but who is going to be making the money. So I just got that job for the weekends.

I try really hard to stay strong for my little sister and my mom, but it's so hard for me. I usually cry my self to sleep or just get so mad at myself, just blaming myself for everything, when I know it's not. It's just so hard to be the man in the house. Their has been a couple of times that I just wanted to give up. But I had to remember I had two people I had to take care of.

I feel like my emotions are just messed up. One day I could be okay the next I could feel broken or just be so mad. But I try to keep it together to take care of them.

So by the time I get home I went to go check up on my mom to see if she was okay. She was fast asleep on her bed, she had a book beside her that it looked like she was reading. So I decided to go over there and make some food for her and my little sister. Because my little sister was going to be home from school soon.

Before I knew it Maria was home, she seemed very excited. She came home with one of the biggest smiles on her face and she didn't really seem like she saw me standing their. So I tried asking her why she was so happy, but she did not bother to care what I'm saying. So I'm only wondering why she is so happy.