yours truly ⌘ luke hemmings

1.1

yours truly

chapter 1.1

9/28/15

dear mi (my darling),

you won't believe what happened. yesterday when I went to the coffee shop in hopes the girl, tess, would be there, she served me a quite delicious cup of hot cocoa, you would have liked it. she remembered my name. and she also invited me to come for one of her favorite drinks today. i just got home, mi, and i have not been this happy in so long. someone was kind to me, someone made an effort to be around me despite my negativity. it feels so good to know that someone is here for me, that i am not alone.

it also got me thinking, baby, maybe I don't have to be alone anymore. i miss calum and ashton and michael. when you first died, they did everything they could to cheer me up. no matter what they did, i would grow more and more depressed, and i hurt myself. they no longer wanted to be around me because i would never stop getting upset and i pushed them away. now i need them.

i haven't cut in a week. sometimes i feel like i have to, it's so hard to stop myself.

but back to my story. i was very nervous to meet tess at the shop, considering i haven't been around people for a very long time. she served me an extremely yummy cup of pumpkin hot cocoa. and it was free.

she talked to me a lot about her future plans. she is the same age as me, a senior. she said she had dreams of becoming a famous singer, mainly because she wanted to inspire people. she is very smart though, she is going to college for therapy in hopes of working with people who are depressed as a backup plan.

i think she'd be good at either of them.

the colleges we are going to are just down the street from each other. i told tess i wanted to do something with music too, and would probably be a business person if i can't. you always liked the way i looked in suits.

she took my number. i am truly hoping me and macy grow closer. i need someone like macy right now, i need a friend.

i think i will try to reach out to the guys sometime. they're so stupid, how could someone not miss those goof balls?

please watch over me as i try to get friends in my life, i need your help.

yours truly,

blue eyes