maybe + a.i [slow updates]

an explanation

hey everyone

it's been a while. almost six months i think since i properly sat down and wrote, maybe three if i updated at christmas but i'm not even sure anymore.

i've been so infrequent on social media, across all boards. I started university in september, and i've honestly had the best time since i started.

i've met a bunch of new people, who are so interesting to talk to and all my focus has been on them and my school work rather than anything else.

i've fallen out of love with writing and all my old interests: i don't go on tumblr, twitter or wattpad anymore. i don't solely listen to 5sos anymore, and as much as i still love them with all my heart and soul, something doesn't feel right. i don't think it's fair to continue this story knowing that i'm not writing about something i'm 100% committed to, which i was when i started writing. and that sucks.

i love writing and i want to be a journalist when i grow older but no matter how many times i try to write this story in my head, it never ends. i doesn't have an ending and never did, all chapters were not pre-planned as you probably could tell and it doesn't feel right writing something that will never have an official end in my head. 

everytime i see the wattpad app icon on my phone it drives me insane, i've been writing drafts for months to help me fall asleep but it doesn't feel right. my writing and personality have matured like crazy in the past 6 months, and i miss who i used to be.

i would love to finish this story. so i'm giving it one last chance. 

i am going to re-write every single chapter. i want to update everything. i started this book just as the rowyso tour was still an idea and not reality. it's not right to picture what 5sos were doing 3 years ago and try my best to recreate it. i'm going to make it based about sgfg, and everything will be updated. it'll probably be the same plot, just different dates. so you could probably not read my updated chapters and still have an idea of what's going on, but in my heart it isn't right to keep it in 2014 when we're 2 albums in. 

thanks for reading if you did. this isn't me ending the book, i'm going to get around to updating it. soon.

thanks for all the love n votes n comments guys. thanks for all the reads i am not deserving of. thank you.

jess x