Silence /-/ Joshler Fanfiction

Chapter 2

Josh's POV

I couldn't fall asleep that night, not like that. Tyler was just so adorable, I don't know what to do with myself. Why'd he have to do that to me? I'm not even gay, so why do I feel like this? I just want him to be happy, and stay that way. I want to stay like this forever, with Tyler in my arms and ki-wait... WHAT THE HELL?! I sat up quickly and looked over at the clock, 5:30AM. I sighed and looked over at Tyler. I can't practice more because I might wake Tyler up. Uh, I can't cook to save my life, so that's out of the question. But what if Tyler wants breakfast? No, he knows me. He knows I might burn the place down if I try to cook. Ah I ran out of cereal. Should I go to the store? No, Tyler may wake up and wonder where I am... I kept thinking of what I could do until Tyler wakes up. I noticed he looked like he was in distress, like something was hurting him. Maybe he's having a bad dream? No, it looks like he's in physical pain. He started to groan and shift around a lot, tears rimming his eyes. I couldn't take the sight and decided to wake him up. His eyes shot open, "Wha-what is happening?" He rubbed his watery eyes

"Ty, you looked like you..." I couldn't get myself to say hurt, "Uh, you looked like you were having a bad dream. You okay, buddy?"

"Yeah, my arms-" he suddenly stopped, "Uh, my he-head hurts. D-do you have some Advil or something?" I knew he was hiding something, but I didn't want to pressure him; especially not now, "Sure, I'll get some." I ran into the kitchen and grabbed a glass of water and two Advil pills. When I was about to go back to my room, I decided to text my friend Debby. Hey Deb. I am kind of in a situation that I can't seem to fix... Could you help me please?

I turned off my phone and put it back in my pocket. I then walked back to my room to see Tyler making my bed, "Here, Tyler I'll do that. Take this." I handed Tyler the glass of water and the pills. Once I finished making my bed, I looked up at Tyler who had already finished his glass of water and was on his phone. He looked up at me, "Uh, Tyler I gotta go to my mom's house. You know how she is." We both laughed, "Alright, see you later, Ty" I watched as he walked out my door and into the elevator. Once I closed my door, I felt my pocket vibrating; it was Debby, 12:00, Starbucks. Don't be late! I smiled and turned off my phone. If anyone were to help me with problems involving Tyler, it was Debby. I looked at my clock, 6:00AM. I sighed. Well, looks like I have all the time in the world to get ready. I remembered a time when Tyler and I got ready for a show 10 hours before it started by accident and walk around the town in our makeup and skeleton hoodies. I smiled at the good memory and took a warm shower to soothe my nerves. I was so nervous about this meetup and I don't even know why. After my shower, I had an apple standing in my towel. I then got dressed and sat down in front of my drum set. I practiced my fourths, eighths, and then a whole song all together. I looked back at the clock, 7:30AM. I was really impatient when I had plans in the afternoon and had nothing to before hand. So I decided to walk to the store to stock up on some Red Bull and snacks. I looked at my phone to check the time, 9:00AM. Why can't I just travel through time and make it 12?! I stomped back to my apartment to put my groceries in the kitchen. I decided to spend a couple hours in the park to get my mind off of things. I walked around and thought about what I was going to tell Debby. I'm obviously going to tell her about Brian. She'll want to hear how Tyler is handling it. Do I even know? Well, yeah. He's being really quiet and depressed. The hugging and cuddling thing is pretty normal, but the crying isn't. But then what about the way I'm feeling? Is that normal. I love Tyler, I really do. But I didn't realize it was a, uh, love-love way. I don't understand... I suddenly snapped back to reality when my my phone buzzed. It was Tyler, Hey Josh. I just got back from my parents house and wanted to know if you wanted to come hang out tonight...? I smiled and quickly responded, Sure thing! I'll bring the snacks ;) Tyler then responded with, Alrighty Spooks, be there at 8:30. See ya then :3 I laughed at his text and then looked at the time, 11:45AM. Alright! I thought as I ran towards Starbucks.

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When I walked in, I saw Debby at the end of the short line. She looked up from her phone and waved. I noticed she had pale blonde hair, which made it hard to recognize her. I walked towards her, "Hey Deb. What's up?" She smiled, "Nothing much, Spooky. New hair color I see." I touched my hair and smiled, "I would say the same for you." We both laughed and moved up to the cashier. We took our orders and sat down at a table, "So, Josh, let's get serious. What was it that you wanted to talk about?" I explained Brian's death and how Tyler wasn't taking it so well, "You just have to be with him every step of the way. Don't be too clingy, but make sure you're always there with him, especially when he needs you most." I buried my face in my beverage. Just the thought of being with Tyler was the best feeling in the world. It was hard to explain, but it just felt right. I heard Debby giggle a little, "Awe, does my wittle Joshie have a crush?" She teased as she smirked at me. I was shocked, "Wa-was it that obvious?" What did you just say?! You idiot!! "Uh-I mean no I don't. I have no idea what you're talking about..." I fake laughed as I tried to avoid eye contact, "Don't lie to me, Josh. I know you love Tyler, and Tyler loves you." I choked on my coffee, "Wh-what? You can't be serious. Uh-by love you mean like in a friend way, not a love way, right?"

"No, I'm dead serious. Josh, you are really good at concealing your feelings and making it almost impossible for people to determine what emotion you're feeling. Tyler, however, not so much. It is so obvious what emotion he is feeling just by looking at his face. I've seen him look at his mom, for example, and you can see love in his face. But when he looks at you, it's something different. It's hard to explain unless you have actually seen it, but you can tell he loves you a lot."

"But what if you're wrong? What if he doesn't like me back. What if he hates me? Wh-What if he-" Debby started laughed and grabbed my hand,

"Josh, that's impossible. He loves you. Even if he's a little depressed about Brian or it's hard to see it right now, he will always love you. Just know that, okay?" I nodded my head. Why was I saying all of that? I don't even like him that way! Haha, yeah... "And don't try to deny it. That just makes it worse." I shot up my head. Did she read my mind or something? Debby laughed again, "Alright, Josh I gotta go. Good luck with Tyler!" She sung as she walked out of the door. I sighed and rested my head in my hands. What am I doing? He doesn't like me like that, so why try to ruin our friendship? But it's so hard, I can't take it!

Before I could contemplate any further, I felt a tap on my shoulder. I looked up to see a young, teenage girl with green eyes that glowed brighter than the sun. She had long, curly hair that was dyed a mix of green, blue, and purple. She adjusted her glasses, "H-Hi..." she said and hid her face behind the arm of another figure. I trailed my eyes up to the person the girl hid behind to see another girl who looked the same age as her, but taller and stood with confidence. The taller girl smiled, "Go ahead, Misty. You can do it!" Misty smiled, "H-Hi. I'm s-sorry to bother you, J-Josh. I was wondering i-if my friend and I could get a picture and an autograph?" She blushed a light pink and my sorrow suddenly melted away, "Sure thing, Misty," the two girls handed me pieces of paper, "Who should I write to?" Misty looked up from her twiddling fingers, "Ah, uh. Just to Misty and Cathy...please" I obliged and signed the paper and took the picture with the two girls. Once we were done taking the picture, Misty looked up at me, "T-Thank you so much, Josh."

"Sure thing! I love to take pictures with fans."

"Not just that, but for everything. Y-You and Tyler's music really helped me gain the confidence to a-ask out my girlfriend and come out to my close friends and family." She linked arms with Cathy, "I just wanted to let you know that. A-And I'm so grateful I got to meet you in person so I could tell you that and...and" tears of joy ran down her pale cheeks as her girlfriend held her closer, "Thank you..." she whispered finally as she jumped towards me for a hug, "You're welcome, Misty. And I'm so glad our music was able to help you gain some confidence. I'll be sure to tell Tyler about it okay?" Misty nodded as she released our hug and wiped away her tears. Once the two girls started to walk away, Cathy turned her head around and mouthed the words, thank you and then went back to their seats. I stood there for a few seconds taking in everything that just happened and then left towards my house. How come my music can help a shy teenage girl come out, but it can't even help me figure out my own life?

AN: Ohhhh now we're getting deeper into the story... I based this chapter kinda on a story that Tyler and Josh told durning an interview where one of their fans came out for the first time in front of them because their music gave him the strength and confidence to do so. Except I wanted my version to open Josh's eyes and give him the confidence and strength to follow his heart, no matter the consequences.

Anyways, stay bright my friends :3 and Happy Easter !!!