i've given up on you ➣ ashton irwin a.u.

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"it's been a lonely year."

➣ ashton

i dream about a better life, one where averie and i have people who care about us and even more importantly, a permanent home. i dream about a place where i could get a job and a girl friend, if any girls even like me, and averie could go to school and make friends. this dream is everything i want.

of course its cut short when im brought back to my reality as the sun shines through the blinds right into my eyes.

"shit." i mumble as i stretch to close the blinds. it was difficult, but i finally got them closed.

it isn't till then when i realise that there is a small weight on my back.
i remember when averie crawled into my bed but i dont know how she ended up on my back. i chuckle to myself finding it funny how she managed to migrate there.

we have to be down stairs at 9 to go to our new "home". the family didnt come here to get us because they live in houston and thats a long ass drive from here. when i glance at the clock i nearly throw averie off me because it's 8:45 and we both have to shower and finish packing.

"averie, you have to get up it's almost time to go." i say urgently.

of course she doesn't listen so i shake back and forth to wake her up so we can get the hell out of here.

"ashy, stop it." she whines.

"if you wanna go to the new family you have to get up cause we have fourteen minutes, and counting, to get ready."

this seemed to wake her up because she crawled off of me quickly and ran to the bathroom yelling, "have first shower cause you take forever on your hair."

"i do not." i yell back.

the next fifteen minutes seemed like a blur of packing, showers, and cleaning the room that we have called our home for almost a year. we procrastinated to get ready for us to leave because i didn't actually think today would come and averie just hates to do anything except watch spongebob and play with her monkey.

its 8:58 and our hair is soaked but that doesn't matter cause were dressed and packed. it'll dry eventually. "okay come on, grab your bag and lets run." we run to though the halls of the large foster building trying to get to the front where the receptionist desk is. when we finally turn the last corner and i can see the promise land averie stops me.

"asht-ashton wait!" she says panicked, "i forgot my monkey"

"ave, we don't have time to go back."

then she looked at me with the saddest look i've ever seen.
if you saw the look on her face and the tears in her eyes you would have done the same thing im doing.

i grab her, her bags, and my bags and drop her off at the front.

"i'll go get the monkey." i say to her quickly.

i haul ass back to our room and open the door so fast it hits the wall behind it with a thud. i see the damn monkey sitting on my bed where she left it and i grab it quickly and i see the orange prescription bottle on the night stand. i roll my eyes, i know she left it on purpose.

i haul ass back up to the front
of the building almost running into a shit ton of people but all i care about is being up there before they leave with averie. they don't wait for anyone when it comes to these things especially me because im almost eighteen.

i turn the last corner and i see amy taking averies bags with a worried expression written on her face. i almost run right into her but i stopped myself.

"i'm here." i say breathing deeply. i rest my hands on my knees trying to catch my breath.

"ashton you're late and you almost missed it. averies in the car. you're lucky i took extra long getting averies things in the car. yours are over there." she says pointing toward the corner.

"averie left her monkey and pills so i had to go back." i say quickly, "have a little faith, amy. i don't see why i had to be exactly on time anyways you know i'm here."

"yes, but you're going to be taking a plane from detroit to houston. we can only pay for one flight so you can't be late. i'm going to go with you guys to the airport to make sure you get there okay, but from there you're on your own. you'll find a driver looking for you at the airport and you'll call me from his phone, okay?" she says very rushed as im picking up my bags.

i don't reply i just put my bags and averies bags into the trunk of the car and slide in with amy behind me.

"ashton, did you get my monkey?" averie asks concered.

"yes, and i got your pills you tried to leave."

"umm...opps." she giggles guiltily.

i roll my eyes at her and decide not to push the issue.
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it was a hour ride to the airport, but it didn't seem that long. the car ride was mostly silent other than amy talking to the man driving.

before i know it we're check in through security and its time to say goodbye to amy.

i've been dredding this since i heard we're going to houston. she has been the only constant in our lives for a long time. she has a connection with us that she doesn't have with the other kids she deals with. she actually cares and that's not something i can say about alot of people.

i don't show her appreciation enough for what she does because i'm always so fucking closed off all the time. i wish i wasn't like that, but i guess it comes with the territory.

amy bends down to averies level and gives her a hug. they exchange some words that i didn't listen to because i figured it was between them.

when she gets up and turns to me i know its all over and the tears that i never show came through. i pulled her into a long tight hug. we stayed like that until the woman over the intercom told us our flight was boarding.

amy pulled away and wiped her face.
"you guys gotta go. i love you two so much."

"i love you too, mrs. amy." averie says happily.

"i love you too." i say quickly.
it was awkward for me because i've never said it back to her before. it was always her saying it to us and only averie answering.

apparently she realised because the look on her face was fucking shocked.

i wiped my face, telling myself to get a fucking grip, and hugging amy goodbye one last time before averie and i got on the plane.

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long time no see ehhhh?

i got bored with fanfic for a while there but im gonna try and write more. this may be dumb but eh.