Maybe, Always? (Everlark Fanfic)

There is No Easy Way: Chapter 5

I haven't seen Peeta in two months. For the past week or two I get up every morning and throw up but, it always wears off by lunch. I keep telling myself it's nerves but I'm starting to think it's more. I miss Peeta terribly, every night I wake up with a nightmare and search for him. Sometimes my screaming gets to loud and Effie or Haymitch will come in to calm me down but I long for Peeta. No one can protect me the way he does. I was snapped out of my thought when I suddenly got the feeling I was going to be sick. I ran to the bathroom just in time. I heard a knock on the door after I finished throwing up.

"Come in!" I yelled.

"Sweetheart is something wrong you keep getting sick." Haymitch asks his face filled with concern.

"I'm fine." I say wiping my mouth off and standing up.

"No your not I'll have Effie take you to the Doctors today." He says and turns to exit.
"Oh and one more thing," he starts then pauses. "You get to see Peeta in 2 weeks." He says and shuts the door.

My heart seemed to leap out of my chest. Finally I get to see Peeta, I get to be in his arms again. My thoughts were interrupted by another wave of sickness. I stood up and began getting dressed. I threw my hair into its braid and slipped on my everyday outfit. As I walked out of my room the smell of hot chocolate fills my nose, my favorite. I walked into the kitchen to find Effie and Haymitch sitting at the table.

"Good morning Katniss." Effie says with a smile and places a cup of hot chocolate in front of me.

"Good morning," I start. "Any news on how Peeta is doing." I ask.

"Better than he was, he's almost stable enough to see you." Haymitch says with a smile.

I smiled back at him.

"We have to leave for the doctors." Effie says. "Are you already?" She asks.

"I just need to grab my jacket." I say running up the stairs.

When I turn to leave I see Effie and Haymitch laughing and looking into each other's eyes. It made me smile but then I remembered Peeta and the way he used to look into my eyes like that. My smile was replaced with tears. I fought them back and grabbed my jacket.

"All set?" Effie asks as I walk down the stairs.

I nod and watch as she kisses Haymitch goodbye as we step out the door. I have never seen him smile that big in my life.

We arrived at the doctors, I played with my thumbs as I waited for them to call my name.

"Katniss Everdeen?" I hear a women say.

I stand up and walk down the hall the the open door. I sit down on the table and swing my feet nervously as I wait for the doctor. He entered shortly, he was tall with dark hair and grey eyes. He reminded me of Gale.

"So what's the issue Katniss." He asked.

"I keep getting sick in the mornings." I answer shortly.

He pondered my symptoms and told me that they would have to run tests. A nurse came in and took some of my blood. They escorted me out of the room and into the waiting room as my test were getting done.

"So?" Effie asks.

"They didn't tell me anything yet. They just took some blood to run tests." I said.

We waited anxiously for 20 minutes before the woman called my name. This time Effie trailed behind me. They lead us to a office that looked like a conference room. I took a seat and Effie did the same we were facing the doctor that looked like Gale again.

"Well there's no other way to say this." He starts. "You're pregnant." the doctor says flatly.

I heard Effie gasp. A million thoughts raced through my mind. When? How? I answered the question for myself. The shower. This is Peeta's baby and he's not even stable enough to see me yet let alone be a father. I put my face in my hand and started crying. I felt Effie pull me into a hug.

"It's gonna be Ok Katniss." She said as she stroked my hair. "Haymitch and I will help you." She said her words were soft and gentle.

I've never even wanted a child. Hell! I never even wanted to be married but here I am pregnant and alone. I'm having a baby, the words went round and round in my head.

The next to weeks were brutal, I was depressed and lonely and Effie and Haymitch couldn't even help me. I just wanted Peeta. I began to notice my stomach growing a little. I tried to push the whole thought of me being pregnant away but the morning sickness, as the doctor called it, wouldn't let me forget. It was the morning of the day that I got to see Peeta and my stomach was in knots, but yet I was excited.
The morning was extremely slow so I decided to go hunting to clear my head. I hadn't been hunting in a really long time and I thought I might not get the chance again considering the pregnancy is going to have an effect on my soon. I walked through the wood and listened to the Mockingjays as they sang. I only caught a rabbit and a few squirrels that day. Not my best but, I was nervous and that always throws me off. I went home and changed, Effie and Haymitch were waiting for me to go see Peeta. The train ride to the hospital seemed like ages and I gripped Haymitch's hand nervously the whole time. We arrived at the hospital and Effie and Haymitch were on both sides of me to offer support. The moment I saw him my heart melted, not because he was in pain or that he looked bad but just because I missed him.