Maybe, Always? (Everlark Fanfic)

Don't Worry I'm Back: Chapter 7

I smooth out the dress I was wearing, it was fit to showcase the little bit of the baby bump I had. I hear buttercup meow as I stare at myself in the mirror.

"What you don't like this dress?" I ask him scratching him behind the ears.

I had forgotten all about buttercup until we went back to my house to get me more clothes. When we found him he was starving and lonely, I never really liked buttercup but he's the closest thing to Primrose that I have. I walk down stairs to find Effie and Haymitch kissing. I clear my throat in order for them to know that I'm here. They stop and laugh pulling each other into a hug. There love only made me long for Peeta more.

"All ready sweetheart?" Haymitch asks.

I nod my head. As we walk to the train that is going to take us to the hospital we begin talking.

"I got a message from President Paylor today. She wants to know if you will make an appearance at a party." He tells me.

"Could Peeta come?" I ask him my voice full of hope.

"I guess we'll see today." He says with a smile as we board the train.

I sit in silence the ride to the hospital. Effie and Haymitch are talking amongst themselves giggling at the other person every once in awhile. The train ride is quick about 10 minutes or so, but it felt like ages. I sat and worried in my seat. Is he better? Is he worse? A dark thought rushes through my head. What if he has an episode after the baby is born? What if he hurts the baby? I try and push the thought away. I been having deep thoughts about this baby. Do I even want it? Maybe I could give it up for adoption or let Haymitch and Effie raise it. I was so deep in thought I jumped at the sound of Effie voice.

"We are here Katniss." Effie says gently.

I grab Haymitch's arm for support as we walk through the hospital.

"Hi we are here to visit Peeta Mellark." Effie says to a nurse behind the desk.

"Room 3c." the woman say with a smile and I'm lead down a hallway.

I look through the window of the room that Peeta was in. He looked better, like himself even. A sense of relief washed over me as I pushed the door of his room open. I begin to walk over to him, I open my arms to embrace him.

"Pe--" I'm about to call his name when he begins screaming.

"You mutt!" he starts screaming. "You killed my family and all my friends!" He say screaming and thrashing around in his bed. 

I'm numb, I don't feel any emotion come through me. I feel someone grab me and try to pull me out of the room but I fight back.  I stand at the edge of his bed to far for him to reach for me.  Haymitch and Effie walk in there faces full of concern.  I focus myself on Peeta his once blue eyes are now cloudy and unable to focus. 

"Peeta it's not real." I say trying to lock his eyes with mine.
"It's not real." I feel hot tears pooling.
"Stay with me." I whisper.

His eyes began to clear revealing the bright blue ones I feel in love with.

"Not real, not real." He whispered to himself over and over.

I moved closer to him and pressed my lips gently against his.  I sat at the edge of the bed still keeping distance between us. 

"Katniss?" He asks his head hanging.

"Yes?" I say smiling at him.

"You're having a baby. Real or not real? He asks a smile coming across his face. 

"Very real." I say moving closer to him.

He pulls me down close to him.

"Don't worry I'm back." He whispers in my ear as I snuggle into his chest.
"You know that was the first time I went mutt in two weeks ."He says.

"Do you think they will let you out soon." I pick my head up to look into his calming eyes.

"I hope." He say moving into kiss me.

"I love you." I whisper in between kisses.

"I love you more." He says pausing to push the hair out of my face and looking into my eyes.
"Katniss your showing!" He says with a smile looking at my stomach.  His mind seemed to go elsewhere after looking at my stomach.
"I've got to get out of here." He says looking down his smile disappearing.

"You will." I say trying to sound reassuring, but its over shadowed by the sound of my heart breaking.

Before he has the chance to respond Haymitch and Effie walk in hand in hand. 

"Sorry to interrupt." Haymitch says taking a seat.  "But we have good news and bad news." Haymitch says his eyes looking at the floor.

"Bad news first." I say scared of what might come out of Haymitch's mouth. 

"They're keeping Peeta for another month." He says looking down at his hands.

I watched as the tears began to fall down Peeta cheeks, it broke my heart. 

"But the good news is that Katniss can visit once a week." Effie said with a smile trying to lift the mood. 

I would only be able to see Peeta 4 days out of a whole month.  The goodbyes will get harder each time I leave and I hate goodbyes. 

"It's ok Katniss." Peeta says pulling me close to him and kissing my forehead.
"It's only a month." He whispers trying to make me feel better. 
But I'm mad, mad at the Capital for doing this to him, mad at myself for being so reckless. I wanted to hit something and scream.  I kissed Peeta's cheek and quickly ran out the door.

"Katniss come back!" I hear Peeta yell.

I wanted it all to stop.  I wanted it to be like it was 3 months ago just Peeta and I.  I ran and ran thoughts racing through my head. I kept running until I reached Haymitch and Effie's house.  I ran to my room and through the door shut.  I began throwing things, whatever I could find.  Lamps, pictures, statues all smashed to the ground. I found myself out of breath and in tears once I run out of things to break.

"Katniss!" I hear someone yell.

"Katniss!" Someone else yells.

I'm getting sleepy, and the room starts spinning.

"Peeta." I say weakly, but I know he's not there. 

The last thing I saw was Haymitch and Effie bursting into my room. And then the world went black.