Lost Love

Take Care

After my big "argument" with Liam I stormed off to my room. A couple of my friends came in to say goodbye but I just wasn't in the mood. So basically I've been lying in bed listening to depressing songs on repeat. If I'm not lying in bed, I'm sitting at my desk starting at the wall. The song I mostly listen to Take Care.

Today my chosen spot was sitting at my desk. I'm pretty sure I looked like total crap. All I do is cry and think about Louis. I haven't eaten in three days. The only thing that passes through my stomach is water. I just sit there, tear falling from my eyes like a water fall...

[Rihanna]

"I know you've been hurt by someone else

I can tell by the way you carry yourself.

If you let me, here's what I'll do

I'll take care of you (I'll take, I'll take, I'll take)

I've loved and I've lost.

[Drake]

I've asked about you and they've told me things

but my mind didn't change

I still the feel the same

what's a life with no fun, please don't be so ashamed

I've had mine, you've had yours we both know, we know.

They don't get you like I will

my only wish is I die real

cause that truth hurts, and those lies heal

and you can't sleep thinking that he lies still

so you cry still, tears all in the pillow case,

big girls all get a little taste

pushing me away so I give her space

dealing with a heart that I didn't break.

I'll be there for you, I will care for you

I keep thinking you, just don't know

try to run from that, say you're done with that

on your face girl, it just don't show.

When you're ready, just say you're ready

when all the baggage just ain't as heavy

and the parties over, just don't forget me

we'll change the pace and we'll just go slow.

You won't ever have to worry,

you won't ever have to hide,

you've seen all my mistakes,

so look me in my eyes.

[Rihanna]

'Cause if you let me, here's what I'll do

I'll take care of you (I'll take, I'll take, I'll take)

I've loved and i've lost.

[Drake]

It's my birthday, I'll get high if I want to

can't deny that I want you, but I'll lie if have to

cause you don't say you love me

to your friends when they ask you

even though we both know that you do (you do).

One time, been in love one time

you and all your girls in the club one time

all so convinced that you're following your heart

cause your mind don't control what it does sometimes.

We all have our nights though, don't be so ashamed

I've had mine, you've had yours, we both know, we know.

You hate being alone

you ain't the only one

you hate the fact that you bought the dream

and they sold you one

you love your friends but somebody shoulda told you somin',

to save you, instead he said;

don't a-ha-ha-ha-ha,

tell me a-ha-ha-ha-ha,

I don't care a-ha-ha-ha-ha,

If you're hurt a-ha-ha-ha-ha.

I won't a-ha-ha-ha-ha,

tell you a-ha-ha-ha-ha,

you don't care a-ha-ha-ha-ha,

if you're true a-ha-ha-ha-ha,

don't a-ha-ha-ha-ha,

tell me a-ha-ha-ha-ha,

I don't care a-ha-ha-ha-ha,

If you're hurt a-ha-ha-ha-ha.

I won't a-ha-ha-ha-ha,

tell you a-ha-ha-ha-ha,

you don't care a-ha-ha-ha-ha,

if you're true a-ha-ha-ha-ha,

[Rihanna]

I know you've been hurt by someone else

I can tell by the way you carry yourself

if you let me, here's what I'll do

I'll take care of you (I'll take, I'll take, I'll take)

I've loved and I've lost."

And then it repeats. How fun my days are huh? Just fucking peachy. All I do is sit here and wait for my phone to go off, hoping it would be Louis. But he never calls. I've really done it this time.

I grabbed my phone and unlocked it. Honestly I have no idea what I'm doing. My hands are acting faster than my mind. I scrolled through my contacts until I found his. Hesitantly I pressed on his name and started typing. I had no idea what I was writing either.

The message wasn't long at all. It was just plain and simple.

To: Loubear xoxo

Louis, I'm really sorry for everything. I never meant to do what I did. I know I'm a horrible person for it and I get it. Be as mad as you want. I wished I could say this up front but I don't think you'd like to see me.. Take care Lou. I'll always love you.

-xoxo Alexcis

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