Way Back Into Love

Chapter 18

"I'll cook for you," he kisses my forehead, stands up, picks up his boxers and proceeds to the kitchen.

I lay there, lost in thoughts. Should I be afraid of this? Partly yes, because I will lose Jason. But the feeling of losing him is not as much as I feel about losing Chris. It was like two different worlds.

I came back to reality, smelling the fresh scent of -

"Pancakes?" I stood up and approached the man cooking by the stove.
"Yeah. I don't know what you like. So..."
"I like you" I hugged him from behind, holding the one layer of sheet that covers my entire body from his.

I didn't know where that came from. Maybe because this is the effect of sex from me. Or is it just...me?

He turned around, facing me. Biting his lip, he says, "You're just saying that because--"

"because..?" I moved closer. We're inches apart. I can feel his shallow breathing.

"The pancakes will burn," he murmurs and gives me a quick kiss. He returns to cook.

I was moving away when he says,"On second thought, I think I want to kiss you."

He kissed me. A sweet, soft, gentle kiss. His lips were like drugs. I can't get enough. It makes me want more.

Chris's POV

She's ruffling my hair. I'm kissing her and she's kissing me back. I might be dreaming. She doesn't do this to anyone but Jason.

She puts her arms around my neck and I pulled her close. She smells like roses and lavender, the same addicting smell she has since we were in high school.

I took her to the sofa. And kissed her like forever. Holding her in my arms, like I always wanted. I removed the sheet she's holding. She's naked once more.

Jane's POV

I wrap my legs around his torso and kissed his jaw. I kissed him all the way to his neck, which I gently bit him. When I smelled something burning, I stopped and asked him.

"What was that?"

He stopped too and said, "Oh shit. The pancake."

Then he ran to the stove and flipped the pancake, the other side's burned.

While he's busy making another one, I went to the bathroom to put my clothes on.

I suddenly felt like I missed something. I feel.. Wait.

"Oh shit."

"What is it?" Chris asked.

"Belle! Oh my god! I totally forgot that I should've gone there yesterday! Fuck!" Just as I was expecting, Mr. Harrison called.

"I'm so sorry Mr. Harrison. I am completely sorry--"

"It's all right, Jane. Belle's being stubborn about it too. But I talked to her about it and she'll about say 'yes' in 3, 2, 1--," and then I heard that familiar bitchy voice, "Fine. I'll go."

"So. Pack your things. You'll go NOW." I didn't know if it was me he's talking to but I swiftly packed my clothes, make-up and everything I needed for a month or two.

"It's done," I turned to Chris. With his hair tousled in a sexy way, I can't leave him..yet. And he's topless for goodness sake! I can't help but blush a little.

"Why are you packing?" He says.

I gave him a tight smile, "You know about the vacation thing, right?"

"Yeah. Wha-- NOW?! But then you wouldn't taste the most amazing pancakes of Chris Madison 'The Great'," he complained. He looks so cute.

"I would love to taste Chris Madison's burned pancakes. But I have to go now. Maybe next month." or never. Since I have a relationship with Jason, I shouldn't be this close to Chris.

I have to do something.

"Look, Chris. After this vacation thing, please let's stop doing this."

He looked at me with a confused expression, "Stop doing what?"

"This. Making out. Pancakes. Sex. Look, I would like to be with you. But.. I already have Jason. I can't have the two of you. Maybe we can't be in a romantic relationship, but we can always be friends," I said, hoping to convince him to stay in my life.

I hate to admit, I wish that I would break up with Jason so that I can be with Chris.

But this is what I wanted my whole life. For Jason to fall in love with me just as I am with him.

Am I?