Way Back Into Love

Chapter 20

I slept after unpacking my things. I woke up with the sun setting down and colors of pink and orange dance in the sky. It's getting dark.

I glance to my left and saw Belle sleeping. Well, she must've been exhausted from what she did a while ago.

I didn't wake her up. Instead, I got up and took a quick shower.

After changing my clothes into something comfortable, I walked outside. Maybe I'll find peace watching the waves.

As I search for a comfortable place to sit, I wondered for a moment what will happen after this. Will Belle and I be friends or we'll just acknowledge each other as acquaintances? But I really hope something good will come out of this.

My phone rings, it's Jason. I didn't know what came to me but for a moment I wished it was Chris.

I answered anyway. "Hey, babe. I miss you. Why did you call?" I say.
"I miss you too, baby. I have a free time. What're you doing right now?"
"Oh, didn't I tell you that I'll live with Belle for 5 months?"
"I thought it's only two months?"
"Yeah, I thought that too."

And so our conversation turned into I miss you's and come back home's. Pretty much.

I wonder what Chris is doing right now. Without me. I mean, you know what I mean. It's just a concern of a friend.

But still..

My phone rings one more time and I pucked it up, not noticing the caller ID.

"Hey." Chris.
"Hey."
"Sorry I called late. I miss you. I mean I miss hanging out with you, you know," he stammered.
"Yeah, me too. How are you anyway?"
He chuckles, "I should be the one asking you that. How's it with Belle?"
You have no idea. "It's a DISASTER. I don't think I can last long. But I'll try.. maybe?"
"You're already there. There's no backing out now," he laughs.
"Right. Well, I won't be seeing you for five months. Don't miss me, okay?"
"Aww, but I will." I can literally feel him pouting on the other line.
"Shut up," I chuckled. "I have to go now."
"Aww, goodbye."
"Goodbye."
"I'll miss you."
"..."
"'I'll miss you too Chris'" he mimics me.
"..."
"Come on, say it. Pleeaaaaaase."
"I'll miss you too."

I ended the call and then stared into space again.

"Cheating on Jason now, are we?" And the monster is awake.
"Good evening, Belle."
"Shut your lying mouth. You're just like me."
"We are not, biologically speaking."
"Don't "biologically speaking" me," she said, quoting those two words in the air.
"What do you want?"
"The truth."

Never in a million years I have ever heard of Belle wanting to hear the truth. She's all gossip when we were in high school.

So it's very unusual for her to ask something like this.

"What truth?"
"Do you love Jason?"

Of course I do. It's just that..

"See? You can't answer me. Which means that you don't love him and you love someone else."

I don't love anybody else besides Jason.

"Someone you're always with."

I love Jason. We've been together for a long time.

"Someone who can understand you and make you smile."

Since high school, I've always loved him.

"Someone whom you can share your feelings and problems with."

But I also met Chris in high school.

"Someone who makes your heart skip a beat when he's kissing you."

I love Chris.