*Night*
After having a lovely dinner with our manager and other people about tour details, I was pretty much drained.
"I'm goin to bed dicks" I said getting up from Ashton's lap.
"I guess I will to" Michael said getting up. Instead of going to his room he followed me to mine. He closed the door behind us.
"Can I help you" I laughed
"Can we talk" he looked nervous, I chewed the inside my lip and sat next to him on my bed.
"Sure what's up?" I looked into his eyes. He held my hand like he was about to "break up" with me.
"I um- never mind" he started to get up. I grabbed his hand and pulled him back to sit on the bed.
"No tell me" I slightly laughed, he smiled and swallowed nothing, his eyes locked with mine.
"before we go on tour I have to get something off my chest" he sighed "Jess, lately I have started to kind of gain feelings for you and I know that's completely inappropriate because were in the same band togeather and I know if we break up It could effect the band and... Jess, are you okay" he said. My mind went blank, I couldn't think of what to say, honestly I don't know what I should say even if words could come out of my mouth.
"I-"my voice cracked
"I have no Idea what- when did this start- why do you- Mike, I-I had no idea"
"I don't know, a couple of weeks ago, I've always thought you were pretty but when it got cold you would huddle up with me and I could snuggle in blankets with you an-"
"Michael you know this could never happen" I said
"I-if we weren't in the same band then sure but I, we, can't risk this and you know that" I said, he nodded and stood up. It almost looked like he was going to cry.
"I just needed to tell you" he said quietly. I stood up faceing him, I wrapped my arms around his neck, he brought me in closer, his body is warm. My head pressed against his chest, I could feel his heartbeat. His hands rubbed my back, he sniffed his tears back.
"Michael" I whispered. He brought his head up to meet mine, our eyes locked again.
Suddenly his lips crashed into mine, I kissed back. Our lips moved in sync. My brain registered what was happening, My hands pressed into his chest making him stop, he didn't let go of my body, I was held close to him, like I was being protected.
"I'm sorry, I don't know what that was" he sighed, I didn't do anything, I just rested my body in his arms, at the same time I was tense. I have no idea what just happened, like my brain can't process this.
"Um, I-I think you should leave" I rubbed my temples with one hand; he let his grip go of me.
"I'm sorry" he mumbled before leaving.
"Michael" I said before he left.
"Hm" he said pulling himself back into the room, I kept my eyes focused on the wood floor.
"Can we just not tell the guys about this? Please" I asked
"Yea, sure" he said quietly
"thanks" I mumbled, out of the corner of my eye I saw him leave, I let out a huge sigh of relief. What the hell just happened!?
I couldn't get the thought of that kiss out of my head. No matter how many times I took a shower I could still feel his gentle hands on my body, no matter how many times I brushed my teeth I could still taste his lips on mine, I cannot fall asleep, I just keep tossing and turning. All night I thought about it. I wonder if he is too.
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"Wake up" someone poked my shoulder. I Moaned and turned over.
"get up or were gonna sing the song" Now I know its Calum and ashton. I am not a morning person at all! I like sleeping, I get all snuggled
up with my dozens of pillows and I do not want to move. Anyway Back in Ausie Ashton and Calum made a god awful song to wake me up, it consists of screaming and uncomfortable threats.
"Go away" I threw a pillow at them.
"C'mon don't you want to give me a kiss" Ashton made kissy noises. My eyes shot open, rage spread through my body, I threw the covers off my body and crawled out of bed grabbing a pillow to bring with me. I ran down to Michael's room and busted through the door. He was still asleep. Perfect.
I whacked him in the head hard with the pillow.
"What the hell!?" he said turning over, his eyes met mine. He noticed my anger and scrambled to get up.
"No Michael. What the hell yourself" I yelled
"Look jess" his features softened. I whacked him in the side with the pillow.
"Ow jess let me explain" he rubbed his arm
"I don't want you to explain I want to hit you with this" I hit him in between every word
"Jessica stop it" he yelled.
"WHAT" I said furiously
"I couldn't keep it from them; I had to tell them that I was over you"
"Wait they knew about this" I gestured to the door were the boys were watching us. Michael nodded.
"You're over me" I breathed. He nodded again.
"well that was easy, you should have kissed me a long time ago" I loosened my grip on the pillow.
"I could do it again" he leaned in, I shoved the pillow into his bare chest, he stumbled back.
"No thanks" I rolled my eyes.
"And never call me Jessica" I glared
"Whatever" he raised his hands in the air to surrender. I smiled and threw my pillow on Michael's bed.
"good talk" I patted his shoulder, he nodded. I awkwardly pushed through ashton and calum to walk back to my room.
"Damn" Luke said "checking" me out. I looked down at myself. I'm wearing underwear and a Spiderman t-shirt that barely covers my butt.
"Shut up Pookie" I rolled my eyes and went back to my room to get ready for meeting one direction.
