Chapters song: Build You Up
By: Kim Taylor
“Done with the last bag?” Luke asked coming into my room
“Yep” I looked around the room; it felt so empty without clothes on the floor. I don’t know why but I’m just getting kinda nervous again. Luke sat next to me crossing his legs Indian style.
“You know, I may be the youngest but if you ever need to talk to someone I’m here” he said. I rolled my eyes and layed back with my legs still crossed. I covered my eyes putting my elbows in the air.
“Ashton?”
“Don’t be mad at him, were a band, we need to know these things” luke said yanking my arm to sit back up.
“I’m not, does Michael know?” I asked worried.
“No, but you need to tell him jess, don’t let him get attached” he said
“I know I just, ugh it’s harder than you think” I said
“Well do you like him?”
“I don’t know, I just don’t want to commit to anything”
“Then tell him” he said more sternly
“Fine, ill tell him tonight” I groaned.
“No, we leave early tomorrow; tell him now so he can have the rest of the day to get over it”
“Okay, okay I’ll do it now” I said, I got up from my bed and marched out of my room and into Michaels next door. Right when I opened the door I saw a shitless Michael, thanks for making this easier for me, god, really!?.
“hai” he smiled bringing me into a fleshy hug.
“Hello” I said into his chest. He let me go, just as I was about to say something he put his lips on mine; I wrapped my arms around his neck, his hands rested on my butt. The kiss became deeper; I knew I had to stop this. When I broke the kiss he just moved down my neck.
“Michael stop” I said. He lifted his head up.
“What?” he asked, I chewed the inside of my mouth, plotting weather to run out of the room or tell the kid everything and cry everywhere again.
“We-we need to talk” I said. we both sat on the couch in his room.
I told him everything, and then some. By the end of the conversation he was silent. I was in tears again; it looked like he was shocked, like I had just told him that they had stopped making nutella or something. When I told him Mason died he held my hand tight and he hadn’t let go of it sense. I told him it didn’t feel right to be with him and he just wrapped me up in his arms. When I told him about the bullying he kissed my forehead. I feel so safe at this very moment.
“Maybe I’m just meant to be your best friend” he said simply. The silence was broken. My eyes engulfed into tears again, but not from sadness, from joy. I lost all of my best friends when I moved; we only talk every other day. I guess all I needed from Michael was to know that he will be my friend.
“Yes” I said.
I’m sitting in the living room with the boys; it’s been a pretty silent day, probably because of what they have all been told. My childhood was interesting as was my teenage years but I finally feel like I’m where I belong.
“Do you want to watch a movie?” Michael asked. I nodded; he got the remote and surfed through the TV to find a movie that’s on. I slouched into the side of Calum, out of all of the boys Calum and I are the closest, at first he was mad that I told Ashton about my past but then he just became the same stupid caring Calum again.
