Welcome To Wonderland..

Goodbye World. Hello Wonderland.

  *TRIGGER WARNING AF**sorry its not good but enjoy.* 

 Quietly placed with a blank, emotionless face sat a camera; it had a case made of black polished metal, the lens jutted out on a shiny looking cylinder. Two dials and a button poked out from the top and it made a wonderfully mechanical whirring sound. In the background was a light brown brick wall, and just to the side of that a shutter could be seen- in front of the wall a car was sat- large and silver. 

The door to the drivers side was slightly open and she was sat against the door to the back passenger seat. Slowly, she rose from the floor- her right hand holding a blade, the other holding little pieces of paper. She dragged herself over to the camera and hesitantly pressed down the record button. She slumped to the ground in front of the recording camera.

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 I looked into the camera lens and it was time - time to say goodbye. In this part of the story i am the one that dies. I didn't want to talk. So I used little pieces of paper:

 'Hi. Im so sorry. Honestly, I don't know why im apologising when many of you have made me feel this way. But im still sorry, ive tried. I really have. Im not afraid of dying, pieces of me die all the time'

'so, when she left, when she died, I lost everything. My other half. My soul mate . I L o s t m y s e l f.'

 'whats the point when you've lost yourself? I can do anything and this is my choice. Im fed up of being alone. What's the point of staying if I could die right now and be with her again?'

 'I m D o n e.' 

' To all my friends: I love you. You have to stay strong. Im broken but you aren't. You all helped me so much, some of you have helped me get this far, some of you have helped me survive but please I have to go now. Forgive me for this? Im sorry.'

 Tears start to fill my eyes and my heart feels like its breaking.

 'Mum. Im so sorry. Thankyou for bringing me up, accepting me, loving me. It isn't your fault. Im still your little girl- just up in the sky. I love you.'

 'Dad, im sorry. Sorry for not being the best daughter I could've been. Thankyou for helping me, working so hard and being there. Thankyou. I love you'

 The tears start to flood down my face.. 

 'Siblings! Hey! Im going to be a angel! Im gonna fly with the fairies! You gotta look after mum and dad for me, okay? You're the best and you'll visit me one day. Ask mummy and daddy to get the tapes out from when I was younger.. I love you.'

 "Relatives. Thankyou. I love you.' 

'My bullies. Im not going to blame you but fuck you. Bye.'

 " I am so sorry. I promise ill see you all soon. Please don't cry. Im happier now. Im at peace. Remember what I wanted at my funereal? Make it happen! Have a drink for me!'

 'i love you.'

 I reach for the camera, tears blurring my vision. I upload the video and turn everything off.. Including my mind. I reach over to the car keys and twist them. Its finally going to be over....

 *Okiesss sooo there's gonna be a part two of this.. maybe*