Welcome To Wonderland..

Goodbye world, hello wonderland (2)

*Hi. Sorry its only short. Havent really got much ideas todayy, sorryyyy*

As soon as i twisted the keys, the engine sputtered to life, a horrible coughing sound like that of a dying man; or of a dying me.

 A cloud of smoke blasted out from the exhaust pipe. My eyes watered and I coughed as the smoke rolled over me.

 So, this was it. Everything is gonna be over. I wonder what happens? Do we just die? Or is there more?

 You never really understand a person until you consider things from there point of view I know no one will understand. They'll just say im selfish but im not. I just can't survive any longer.

 The garage started to fill with a thick fog that seemed to quickly fill my lungs.

 I  w a s   d y i n g...  A l o n e.

 I grew unsteady and thoughts flooded my mind.. Was I just born to die? My head started to throb.. 

You know that feeling when someone says something and it just feels like your entire heart has been pulled out? That's how it feels. How it feels to feel like the only thing that can help you Is something so inevitable as death.. Maybe i don't belong. Maybe they are better off without me. 

Have you ever thought that maybe if you were to die right now it wouldn't matter. That maybe death is the only option... Of course id already decided that I wanted to go..

 I t s  t o   l a t e   n o w   a n y w a y  r i g h t? Struggling I grabbed the little silver blade that had given me sweet release for so long now.. I was going to use it once more.. For the last time. Slowly I slid the silver metal into my skin.. But this time it had to be deeper.. Again a white line appeared and little red droplets of blood formed.. But the blood didn't stop this time.. Red liquid leaked out from my wrist.. I was fading.. Vision blurred and my mind free.. It felt good.. But the gas was choking me..

 It was to late to change my mind now, right?

*I know its short and badly wrote but mehh, This is my lasttt oneee, so if you could vote and comment any ideas for news stories that would be greatt but thanksss for reading :) *