I stare blankly at the ceiling in my room. I didn't go to school today after what happened yesterday. My mom asked me what happened and I said I didn't feel well. She gave me medicine and said I should just rest and if I still didn't feel well tonight I should just skip school tomorrow. I told Nathan everything. I know I can trust him because I've been trusting him since we were young. After I told him he was so furious he wanted to beat him. I said he needs to calm down and I will be the one who will talk to him.
To be honest I don't want to talk to him ever again. After what I heard at the cafeteria. All of this was just a lie, a dare just so he could get into that stupid group of his. I wanted to get my mind off of these things and I know my only escape is music so I got my iPod out of my bag and plugged in my earphones and just listened to the music that was playing.
I've been watching your world from afar
I've been trying to be where you are
And I've been secretly falling apart
Unseen
To me, you're strange and you're beautiful
You'd be so perfect with me
But you just can't see
You turn every head but you don't see me
I can't help but to cry. I love Gavin but why did he do this to me? Because he knows that I've been crushing on him since Freshmen year? It hurts I thought the boy who I've been watching from afar and know my friend actually likes me and wants me to be his girlfriend, but all along he already has a girlfriend and I was the last one who got to know. I'm so stupid to let him fool me like that.
I'll put a spell on you
You'll fall asleep
When I put a spell on you
And when I wake you I'll be the first thing you see
And you'll realize that you love me
He put a spell on me. The first time I saw Gavin in the halls of our school he already got my attention. And when our eyes met my heart skip a beat and I know right then and there I was in love with him. I know it was early for love so I called it a crush. And ever since I wished he'd notice me since I was always looking his way.
Sometimes the last thing you want comes in first
Sometimes the first thing you want never comes
But I know that waiting is all you can do
Sometimes
I'll put a spell on you
You'll fall asleep
Cause I put a spell on you
And when I wake you I'll be the first thing you see
And you'll realize that you love me, yeah
I've waited for Gavin. 3 years? I don't know I think until now I'm waiting for him. Waiting for him to love me. But I know now that, that is impossible. That he only used me and that he will never like me nor love me.
