Redemption

Chapter 31: Bliss

*WARNING: I WAS IN MY FEELS. JUST FYI*

"Yeah...she's asleep right now...no...no...I know, I'm sorry. That's why you need to come home. Please. You know I wouldn't be calling you if it weren't important...I gave up on that shit a long time ago...so you'll consider it? Thank God...what? Well, yeah I did...it's none of your business...yeah...okay...I'll see you soon, then. Thank you."

"Who was that?" I mumbled.

"Jen? You're awake?" Harry put his phone in his pocket and ran to my side.

"What happened?" I asked sheepishly. My head was pounding. I was a bit nauseous and I couldn't see clearly.

"You tried to kill yourself, love."

"I did no such thing. You're crazy." The thought of an attempted suicide angered me. I've never wanted to end my life. I tried to sit up, but I was too weak. "Tell me what happened."

Harry sighed and sat at the end of my bed. He placed his hand on my leg and I shivered.

"You told me you loved me." I suddenly remembered everything. "You ran upstairs before I could even say anything. You slammed your door in my face and locked it. I beat on the door and you wouldn't open, so I got scared and kicked it open. You were in the bathroom lying on the floor. You were so cold, baby. You were pale and your beautiful eyes wouldn't open. I kept saying your name...I then saw the empty bottle and I freaked out. I didn't know what to do other than get them out of you..." his voice trailed off at the end.

"What did you do?"

"I shoved my fingers down your throat...luckily, you gagged and most of the pills came up. I pumped your stomach and chest. I'm no doctor, but that was my first instinct. I called Sophia. She freaked out. You're lucky to be alive." Harry said as he closed his eyes. His facial expression changed and then I realized what he was doing - he was trying not to cry. "Dammit." he said. "Do you not know how much I care about you? Do you not know that if it weren't for you, I could be in prison or dead somewhere? You saved me, Jennifer." His tears began spilling down his cheeks.  "And for you to believe that I don't love you? Are you insane? You're the first person I think of when I wake up. Your smile gives me butterflies. I don't even care how gay I sound right now, I only ever want to be with you and make you happy because I never want to see you sad. I never want to see you in pain and I never want you to leave. I am in fucking love with you! I love you, I love you, I fucking love you!"

My heart couldn't handle his emotions. I mustered up enough strength to sit up and wrap my arms around him. He held me tight and we both cried.

"If you ever try and kill yourself again, I will die right along with you. Please, don't hurt me like that." he whispered in my ear.

"I promise" was all I could say. Suddenly, my body collapsed in his grasp. He laid me down and covered me back up. He then laid on the other side of the bed and held my hand.

"How long have I been asleep? Did I miss Christmas?" I asked quietly.

"Well, Christmas has come and gone. Tonight is New Year's Eve."

I gasped. "I've been asleep for 9 days?"

"No...you woke up a few times, but it was nothing spectacular. You'd open your eyes, but you wouldn't say anything. I had a feeding tube in you since you couldn't eat. Sophia told me to take it out yesterday...she thought you were going to die. Actually, everyone did."

"What happened to everyone?" It just occurred to me that Harry had never mentioned the others.

"Louis moved out after Christmas. He and Briana live in the suburbs...I never thought Louis would settle down, but he's really excited about his kid. He's actually paint shopping right now." Harry laughed and it was the most beautiful noise I had ever heard. "Let's see...Niall still lives here. Selena went back to the States and he's really sad. He keeps watching videos of them from Christmas morning. Liam and Sophia are still in New York. They'll be back next week. That sums up our little family."

Family. He made it sound so blissful.

"They really like you." Harry said quietly.

"You think so?" I laid my head on his shoulder.

"Yeah. Niall thinks you're the sweetest girl he's ever met. Louis calls you a "tart" behind your back, which basically means he likes you. Liam has always liked you and the girls...well, girls are hard to read. I assume they like you." We both laughed.

"You should get some rest, my dear. I'll bring you some dinner later. We can even open our gifts." Harry tried to get up, but I wouldn't let go of his hand.

"Stay with me." I whispered. "Please?"

He laid back down and pulled me closer to him. I laid my head on his chest and listened to his beautiful heartbeat.

"Always." he whispered. "I love you."

"I love you, too."

I drifted into a peaceful sleep.