When I look at You - Larry Stylinson [BoyxBoy]

Chapter 13

I'm so sorry that this is late, I don't know why but wattpad wouldn't let me upload this chapter. Does anyone else experience this problem because I do EVERY TIME. I upload on my iPhone if that helps.

So anyways. a few things will be revealed in the chapter!

Louis' POV

I can't believe I just said that. I grimaced, I was so stupid. Why did I call him a faggot? He wasn't a faggot, he was Harry. My cheeky, loveable Harry.

He said he loved me... I can't believe it. I looked over at Eleanor who looked shocked as ever. I loved him, how could I have been so stupid?

Eleanor's face changed from shock, to understanding.

"Go get him" she whispered, as if she had read my mind. I quickly nodded my head and ran out to my car.

I reversed out of the drive away and sped down to our- I mean, Harry's flat.

I got out of my car and ran into the flat, which was surprisingly unlocked. "Harry?!" I yelled, hoping he would reply. "Harry, where are you?"

No reply.

I went into his bedroom to find it empty.

The flat was creepily silent, I had a bad feeling about this.

I ran into my room and found it empty, too.

I turned around in frustration, groaning. Suddenly, some blood caught my attention. My eyes widened, no he couldn't have... I ran over to the bathroom, my heart pounding.

The sight of what I saw next made my whole world crumble into tiny millions of pieces.

It was Harry.

Blood covering his arms, his beautiful face completely pale. I crouched down, tears beginning to roll down my face. "Why" I whispered. Suddenly my instincts kicked in. I had to get him to the hospital. I couldn't lose him, not like this anyway. I picked his frail, limp body and carried him to my car.

I quickly drove down the hospital, skipping all the red lights.

I picked him up ran into the hospital, ignoring all the weird looks I was getting. "My.. Best friend, I-i think he's dying, please save him" I pleaded with the receptionist. She looked at me worried, but then sprung into action after seeing Harry's body.

She ran to get a doctor and a couple of nurses took Harry away from me. I ran after Harry, but a nurse stopped me. "Sir, you have to wait out here. We'll let you in when we've got him into a stable condition" she told me. I fell onto the floor in defeat, this was all my fault.

I rang up Liam and told him everything, something told me I should tell him first. Since he is like a father figure to us.

"WHAT" he yelled into the phone "Louis, is this is one of your pranks, because don't you think this one is a bit far?" He snapped.

"No I'm not joking" I croaked.

There was a was a silence on the phone, which lasted way to long for my liking. "Liam?" I whimpered.

"I'm coming to the hospital, I'll bring the boys" he told me in an assuring tone. "Stay strong Louis... Harry's a strong lad"

I managed to say something along the lines of an "I know" then cut the phone.

Liam, Niall, and Zayn arrived 20 minutes later, their faces red and eyebrows furrowed. Niall spotted me first and ran over in tears. Liam and Zayn followed, on the verge of tears looking like they were thinking intensely.

"What happened ?" Niall cried, "The only thing Liam is telling us is that Harry is in hospital and that he tried killing himself"

"It's my fault" I blurted, coldly.

"No it's not!" Liam disagreed.

"If I hadn't of been a rude prick and called him a faggot we wouldn't be in this mess!" I exclaimed. " If I hadn't of said nobody loved him, if I hadn't treated him like shit... Like he was the least important person in the world" I squeaked, my legs feeling like jelly.

They all looked at me in shock. "Y-you did that?" Zayn asked me quietly. "Hard to believe right?" I bitterly spoke. "Did you mean it?"

He implored.

Did I mean it? Of course I didn't. There were a lot of things I said, that I didn't want to say but was forced to.

-6 months ago-

"Louis, you have to stop this not so little 'bromance' thing going on with you and Harry. Being gay is not going to sell" Simon sternly said, looking straight into my eyes. "But I'm not gay" I protested, my eyes widening in shock. Why would he think I was gay. "It looks like you are, a straight man would not touch his friends butt and kiss him on the cheek" he stated blankly.

"I need you to stop, fans are upset about this. You can't carry on this Larry Stylinson 'bromance' or whatever. Being gay does not work well for boybands. It does not sell. Spend more time with Eleanor and less time with Harry, do you understand me?" He said sternly. I nodded my head in shock. So, people thought I was gay?

That's ridiculous, plus, who cares what people thought? Harry was my best buddy and he cute, amazing funny, adorable cheeky, h- wait what. Maybe Simon was right... A straight man does not think like this. No, Louis get your head out of the gutter.

"Louis, I'm serious. I'm asking you to stop acting gay in public, I don't care what you do in private. If you fail to understand this, not only your job but the rest of the boys jobs will be at risk too. I'd listen to me, if I were you" he dead panned.

I started at him in shock.

I quickly muttered a yes to Simon, wanting to get out as fast as I could. "Good, you're dismissed. I suggest you go on a date with Eleanor, just to show the paparazzi and the public that you love her and then tell Harry that you can't do couple stuff in public, even though you insist it's banter. People don't know that, and assume you are a couple."

I took in his advise and sprinted out of the office.

-back to present-

I was so stupid, why hasn't I realised I was hurting him? He loved me, he was so brave to tell me and what did I do?

Be a complete dick.

I'd be crazy to not be in love with him. He was imperfectly, perfect. His flaws made him thousand times more beautiful.

His laugh, his eyes, the way he widened his eyes and covered his mouth when he caught himself laughing widely. How he was too nice for his own good and could never say no to fans. Always agreeing to take a picture and never declining a hug. His lame jokes, it's what made him, him. He was amazing, and he didn't even know it.

Please be okay Harry, I believe in you. I need you.

I looked over at Zayn, tears running down my face. I shook my head and walked into the room where Harry was...

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Oo, SO THAT'S WHY LOUIS WAS BEING SO STRANGE!

IM SO HAPPY FOR ZERRIE, imagine their babies! They will be flawless.

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See your sexy faces next time!

Love you

~Dammy101