My Brother's Best Friend // j. j FanFiction

Chapter 36

Chapter 36:

I spent the next 2 days in bed, sobbing and just watching the Notebook over and over again. No texts, no calls, nothing from Johnson. I wasn't sure if that was a good or a bad thing.

I had obviously been stalking him on social media.

He had been tweeting things that were a little shady but sentimental, like:

'It all changes so quickly.'

'One mistake and I was out'

'She ain't worth it if she ain't gonna co-operate'

I took offence to some of them. By co-operate, did he mean sex? If he was this kind of person when I just told him I needed time to think about things, then he wasn't the man who I fell in love with. 

Madison had come over earlier today and looked after me. We watched some movies together and stuffed our faces. She understood what it was like to be heartbroken.

I wasn't even properly heartbroken. It just felt as if Johnson and I were over. He wouldn't call or text, he didn't even try to contact me. I was hurt. I was deeply deeply hurt.

I had come to the conclusion though, that I was ready to make our relationship public. But it felt like it was too late now.

Sex though, that was a different topic. I was only 15 and I was pretty sure that I wasn't ready for it. Maybe when I turn 16, but I just don't know. I don't know when I'll be ready. Of course I'm comfortable with jack, and I'm practically 100% sure that I want to lose my virginity to him, but right now... I'm just not ready for it.

We had only been together for not even 5 months, and I had always told myself I would have to be in a relationship for at least a year before I would think about sex. But now that I was actually in the position where I had to choose, I was scared after 1 year it would be to late. That he would have found someone else who was willing to pleasure him in ways I couldn't.

And that scared me.