"hey"
you send the message like it's nothing but little do you know that my entire body tenses up and is unable to move
"i love you"
i respond with the same message although i do not want to i do not want to be yours we are all taught at a young age that our body is ours and for some reason i am torn between wanting someone to claim me and never wanting to see another person
"i see myself spending the rest of my life with you"
all i want to do is run i should have never held your hand that day but i knew you wanted someone to love you and i just couldnt resist your crystal blue eyes
"if you ever leave me i will destroy my life"
i am terrified because what if i fuck up i can not be responsible for another life when i barely want the one i have now
"babe?"
i do not know what love feels like because i have never been in love and maybe this is love and i am just scared or maybe i just wanted to help you but i went about the wrong way of doing it but either way i feel trapped and i do not want to feel this way
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Agoraphobia
Poetry"i hope to god that body is stronger than my mentality because if it isnt i am bound to collapse and break at any moment."
