You Dont Choose It Choose You

Chapter 15: The past

Tom pov :
Ugh...my head still hurts when we walked out of a hospital. I was still feeling weird and needed to lean to the wall. Ryan came and taked my hand i blush. We walked towards his car. I saw Roby with Mark chating a bit. Mark asking over and over about his head and touched a few times. I smiled maybe the world isn't so bad huh. Some men walked pass us but stopped to Ryan "Ryan? Hey Ryan.Im so glad to see you" he hug him and Ryan let go my hand which kinda hurted. "Yeah hey Mike. I didn't know you were in town .For how long?" I stand there awkwardly. "Im here just for a few days. Me and Jess planning about our trip to Germany." I felt like five leg... fuck i looked to Ryan. He nod "Well i see you are still with her" "Yeah we visit her brat kid yesterday. Man what an insane day" I still was confused. "Oh need to go, we will meet again. Say 'hi' to Will" and he left. Fuck i saw how Ryan looked happier. I was hella jealous. We entered the car. And i felt very sad and didn't want to talk. He looked over to me and didn't say anything. He turned the radio on. There was sad song so i stare out the window and act like im in a movie. Im glad he turned the radio, sometimes quiet is violent.

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We arrived at my grey house. He asked me if i need help , i just shake my head. I walked towards the house. It was still empty. I went to my room and take out my largest backpack and put all my clothes in. I wasn't in hurry. There was plenty time. I take with me some money, keys, headphones and hygiene stuff. And headed to Ryan who was now helping me with it. Before we drive i turned around to my house and Ryan asked "You ready?" i nod and we both drive to his house in silence.

I was now thinking about this men who talked with Ryan i swear i saw him somewhere. The drive was a bit longer than to Roby. When we finally arrived it was evening already. Damn. "On way here i order some pizza if thats okey?" I just nod i dont really care. All i wanted to go to bed and cry myself to sleep. It was just too much for me. i was thinking about my parents. did they really left me or.. "Hey Tom, you can come in or you can stand there for pizza" he smiled. I coudnt be angry at him i mean he didn't do anything. Its just my stupid thoughts. But why the hell he need to send me so mixed signals? Jeez. I take my bag and backpack and walked in. He was having pretty big house. Like Robys. There was big kitchen and big living room on first floor. With freaking big tv he has so many movies. There was cool pug carpet on the floor. I like it. He closed door. And take my bag upstairs. I follow him and enter a pretty big room. There was a king size bed and lots of colourful pillows on the ground. I liked the picture on the wall. It was painted. There was two boys hugging it made my heart melt. I think i was standing there long enough "I see you didn't figured who they are huh? Its me and Will" Now it was clear for me they looked so cute together. "Thanks i guess" he laugh. Why i need to say all good stuff out loud? I need to stop doing that. "You want to see my room?" i nod and follow him to next room. When i enter there i was in shock. There was bigger than king size bed , and enormous big puffy carpet ,  and paints were all over the walls. They were so many, small and big mostly nature, animals and people. They were kissing and touching. And there were photos too. i looked over to big photo poster. There was Will about Ryan age and Ryan about my age, and blond girl i guess his sister with parents. Will didn't have a beard and still looked cute. Ryan came over and touched my shoulder "I think you get it its my family. This photo was taked that day when i left home" He looked to me , and i felt a little sad about it "Why? You look so young in there" he giggled "Will was already taking some class in college , he always wanted to do sports so he take gym teacher. On other hand i was pretty good in math and art. All my friends didn't get it so i always said to myself 'when i will grow up i will be math teacher and teach those dummies how to find x' When my parents heard that i want to be teacher too they kinda were pissed. They wanted that i would be a doctor like my sister, lawyer like my mom or business man like my dad. Hehe i never was into that kinda thing. He though i want to be a teacher just cuz i want to have all the girls in school" i looked at him and he looked sad. "And there i drop the line i was so pissed at him he always was thinking he is smarter than me know stuff about me more than myself. So i ask Will to stay with him because i didn't want to be with my parents, i take some clothes all my money and that day i left my house, until now my dad didn't called me. I dont hate him , i just dont want to talk with him because he dont like me anymore.." and there was a knock , i guess pizza is here.