Can't leave U' alone! (Erik Durm)

Lucky

~Erik 

I tried to do everything as fast as possible, Ivonne had sounded a bit weird over the phone, I don't know if she was tired or bored, or maybe there was something else I didn't notice. Although there was a perfectly sane reason for her to act like that, I only told Julian this morning because I was so stressed out I needed to get this secret out of my mind. Yes, the guys on the team already knew there was something going on between her and me, but my friends outside the national team knew nothing about it and it felt right to tell him. The problem is I didn't warn her at all. Shit, of course she'll be mad at me. 

I hurry at the exit, I haven't notice a few of the guys messing with me from behind. 

"Is your girlfriend here, Durm?" That was clearly Müller's voice 

"Don't mess with him, his face can't take any more red in it" Basti whispered but failed in preventing me to hear that. I turned around to see them grinning at me. 

"Sorry, mate. You were bound to this, you have a girl now" Thomas said. Hearing that made me realise I wasn't even sure she was my girl, not because I didn't want to but because she was leaving soon, was it even worth it to ask her? I have tried too hard not to think in that day, they day she'll leave but no I suddenly can't avoid it. The first thing I see when I get to the parking lot is Julian's car, Max and him are resting on the hood of the car. Ivonne is nowhere to be seen. 

"Hey, mate" Julian greets me with a grin. As I walked forward I can see Ivonne's dark hair in the back seats of the car, I can tell she's trying to ignore me. After a brief chat I asked them to give me a minute with her. I get into the car to seat beside Ivonne. 

"Hello" My voice sounds weak. I thought she wasn't going to talk to me because she kept staring outside her side of the window. 

"Why didn't you tell me about this?" She asked without looking at me. 

"Ive, I'm sorry. Can we talk about it in the hotel?" 

"Why? You're going to tell them anyway, so what if they hear now?" She snapped at me. 

"Please" 

*

The whole drive to the hotel was silent and awkward. Max and Julian kept talking about the game and about their plans for the weekend. They tried to involve me in the conversation but I didn't even want to pretend it was fine, because it wasn't. Ivonne got out of the car immediately after Julian parked outside the hotel. I said my goodbies and did the same. 

"So?" Ivonne had find a seat in a big white sofa in front of the door "Care to explain?" I stepped in and closed the door behind me. Placed my sportsbag on the floor and stood in front of her. 

"I'm sorry"

"I don't need to hear that again, Erik" After hearing that I felt a tight grip upon my chest. Was she really that mad? "I know you're sorry, I want you to explain, I want to understand" I breathed confident once again. I knelt down, I was just a few inches from her face, I could almost touch her skin with my eyes. 

"I needed to tell, to get it out, I needed to talk about it"

"About what? about me?" She asked suddenly concerned. I stood up and walked away from her.

"Ive" I was giving her my back "You're leaving..." My voice as sad as I was feeling inside. She didn't speak right away, not until I turned to look at her again. She was staring deeply at her lap when my staring caught her eyes. 

"You knew that, we both knew that..." I feel a bit guilty to make her sad like me, but I don't know if this is any better than her being angry at me. She shots me a piercing look. It was better she was angry at me, I presume.