Same Old Days

chapter 3

( recap okay so basically last chapter Michael found Alyssa's suicide note in a notebook but is scared to talk to her about it.)
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"Hey hey hey I'm ready for lunch lets go!" i heard Lexi yelling from down the hall with Ashton. They've become pretty close to say the least. I really don't know what they are, but they haven't said anything about being together so i don't know.

"I'm waiting for Michael gosh!" i yelled back. Where was he, he never takes this long.

Michael's POV

I was walking down the hall to Alyssa's locker from 3rd period when i suddenly got pushed up against the lockers.

"Woah bro what are you doing?! I don't want any trouble!" i yelled confused.

"Listen up, you better stay away from Alyssa you're no good for her & she belongs to me. Stay away or i swear next time I'll kill you." the boy said so calmly & i can't understand why.

"Okay dude just let me be. Please." some people are so rude i swear. But what the hell was that about?

Crap. I forgot Alyssa normally waits for me by my locker. I decided to run so that she doesn't get even more worried about me.

"Hey! There you are.. What happened? You look like you've seen a ghost."

Is it really that noticeable?

"Yea it is now come on Lexi & Anna are waiting for us."

Whoops I said that out loud.

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Alyssa's POV

(A/n Skipping to the end of the day because school sucks)

Lexi & I decided to walk home together since it was Friday & she normally stays the night on Fridays. Sometimes Anna comes but most of the time her mom says no because I'm a 'bad influence'. I don't know why she thinks that. Maybe it's cause i dye my hair?

We were at my house in 20 minutes. Wow new record. Lexi already knows about my mom being the way she is. She's actually prevented her from hitting me before. She found out when i started coming to school with bruises on my arms or face that i didn't cover up as much as i thought i did. My mom has never hit any of my friend's before so that's a good thing because i swear to freaking god if she were to touch mikey, anna, lexi, or any of the boys i will kill her. Okay maybe not kill but majorly injure.

"Come on dude don't you have any food here?" Lexi called from the kitchen. I was sitting in the living room watching teen wolf.

"My mom hasn't lent me the car to go grocery shopping yet, so there's not alot sorry!" i called back. Food is a major key in my daily life so I'm really hoping i can go buy some soon.

"Hey let's go to the gas station then i have $20 & we can buy junk food & get all hyper & shit." lexi was now standing next to me literally pulling me off the couch.

***TRIGGER WARNING***

I winced as she grabbed my wrist because of my cutting. I told her i had stopped but honestly i can't. It's like i feel some sort of better when i do it. I don't know it's hard to explain.

"Hey, are you okay? I didn't mean to hurt you, sorry." Lexi apologized.

"Yea, no it's fine it wasn't you don't worry." i didn't want to tell her but i also didn't want her to find out & get mad at me. I guess it's now or never...

"Lexi can i talk to you & can you promise not to get mad or freak out?"

"Of course liss I'm always here."

Alright here it goes.

" okay so um i flinched because I've sorta been doing something i told you i had stopped & i feel horrible. I'm pretty sure you know what I'm talking about & I'm so sorry please don't hate me for lying." i rambled. Oh gosh she probably hates me.

"Liss, you know that i would never leave you for something like that. I have a history of doing that too. Remember that day i saved you & you were pissed at me for taking the pills away? That night made me realize how much i need to stay by your side. We were in a fight & trust me i would have forgiven you long before if i knew what was going to happen. I was so worried. I don't hate you & I'm not mad. I never could be for something like that. I understand. You already know i have a history of self harm too & it's okay. I'll help you with this battle & i promise i won't let you down." what would i do without her?

I didn't realize i had been crying until i felt her wiping away my tears with her sleeve.

"Thank you lex. I don't know what I'd do without you." i said as i hugged her.

"Just promise me 2 things, then we can go get ice cream & watch the fault in our stars & cry together." oh no what do i have to promise oh gosh.

"Okay, what is it?"

"One, next time you feel like cutting, please talk to me. I want to help you. Or at least try. And two, please help me & Ashton get together."

I was just laughing because of the 2nd promise. Obviously they'd be together eventually. They're already so cute as 'friends'.

"Okay, one i can't promise because sometimes it just happens & you might not be available but I'll try & for the 2nd one, of course I'll get you two together, you guys are already cute." i tried my best to answer to the first one because honestly i don't know if i can keep that promise. Lexi squealed as i told her i would get her & ash together, what a dork.

"Oh wait & can you promise me one thing?" i asked Lexi.

"Sure what's up?"

"Please don't tell any of the boys about this. I don't want them to think I'm a freak and leave me even though I've only known them 2 weeks i feel so close to them & don't want them to leave."

"I understand & I promise."

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A/n
I know this book probably sucks so far, please don't hate me i promise it will get better. I'm trying, thank you. Also, thank you for reading & please give feedback! I'm gonna update as soon as i can. I love you guys, okay byee💕