Pizza. This tells me Louis chose what we are eating tonight. The boys were laughing and joking at the table, they looked happy. Zayn looked happy. Once they had ate, Zayn and Louis started wrestling on the sofa. Typical. Is it bad that i feel jealous? I dont want to be obsessive over him, but i want to do these kind of things with Zayn. But no, Louis is always centre of attention. Typical fucking Louis.
When i finished my dinner, i went on jumped on top of them both, i wanted to join in with the fun. "Harry, why are you getting involved?!" Louis questioned, he obvioulsy cant take someone else getting attention. "Chill Lou" Zayn ordered looking at me. Oh how i love him. But, i cant be arsed with Louis, so i just left to sit outside. I heard Zayn say "Well done Louis!" and he followed me out.
I sat on the steps in front of the house. Zayn came and sat by me. "Whats up, why did you act like that?" Zayn asked me. "How are we gonna do this? I cant even look at you with another person!!" Yup, i was crying again."Come on, walk with me" Zayn told me. We walked in silence for around five minutes, until Zayn broke it. "Harry, you dont have to get jealous when im with the other boys" i knew what he was saying but i dont care. "Why? I want that to be me! Why cant we mess around like you and Louis do?" Zayn stopped in my tracks and turned to look at me. "It can be! It will be! All you need to know is when im pissing around with the boys, i want it to be you. But we cant close the boys off, we have all the time in the world to be together" Zayn looked serious.
"Why cant we have that time now?" i whispered. "Look Harry, we can!" he took a step forward. He brushed my curls from my teary eyes, I wish he wouldnt do that. I have butterflies. "We are alone now" he smiled. I didnt say anything, this is the effect he has on me. "Harry! Me and you, in the future, can be a couple! But right now the boys need One Direction and if everyone knew about us everything would change for them" he explained. He was right. "So, right now. Only we know about us. Okay, we need to do it for the boys" Zayn took the final step, there was no space left beteen the two of us now. "Just know that i love you" Zayn finished. I had butterflys so bad. He makes me feel so nervous.
Wow. Zayn was serious. He actually loved me. Less than inch from my face Zayn was just smiling. "I love you" i told him. He looked up into my still wet eyes, oh he was so beautiful. "I know" Zayn laughed and he just hugged me. Being wrapped in his muscly arms was all i needed, i just felt safe. I could stay in this moment forever.
After a few moments, Zayn pulled his face back an inch and just stared at me. Before i knew it, he was kissing me. I was shocked. We're so out in the open, but he didnt care. Of course i kissed him back, i was in love with this guy. I didnt know he was this serious, i dont think he did to be honest. But this was real, and it felt so good.
