--------the next day, Zayns p.o.v----------
Today is the day. We make our first appearance in public since Harry and i came out. The day of the 'Catching Fire' premiere. I was still a little weak but i was a lot better now, thanks to Harry for taking care of me. He spoke to Louis yesterday and he said they are fine.
We all picked out suits out for the event a while back. Im still on crutches so i wont be looking any good tonight anyway so i dont know why i am bothering. But i am. We spend the whole day pissing around and rush at the end. This is the first time we are getting ourselves ready, no make up artists or stylists, just five boys being themselves. Which is good.
We are all ready like ten minutes before we have to leave. Me and Harry go upstairs and have our last ten minutes of alone time before entering the horrible world of media all over again.
---------Harrys P.O.V---------
We are all ready, Zayn and I are just having a moments alone time before we have to go back to the world of celebrities. 'so, this is it' Zayn says to me. 'yup, it is, thank god' i laugh. 'really?' he asks me. 'yeah, i dont care anymore, i just want to be with you!' I know i am risking everything for the lads but loosing Zayn would be a lot worse than loosing One Direction. I would still have the boys, and most of all, i need Zayn.
'You look good' Zayn smiles at me 'I love it when you do that to your hair' he giggles. 'i love that' i say. 'what?' he asks. 'You smiling' i know, cheesy, but true. When Zayn is happy i am happy. Zayn just laughed 'i love you' he just stared in to my eyes, like he was looking through me. 'I do Harry, i see you sometimes questioning if this is real, it is, all of it, and i love you more than anything and i wanna be with you' he explains 'good' i laugh 'because im not going anywhere' i tell him. 'Good' and he kisses me, i felt like i had to be careful as he is still weak, but he looked a lot stronger, and was acting a lot stronger within himself. After a few minutes Niall shouts up the stairs 'Boys, we're leaving' and we both go down.
We left as the five of us, a band, One Direction, no one knows how we will come back. But we'll soon see.
--------Zayn p.o.v------------
The premiere for Catching Fire was pretty good, but i just wanted to get out of the spotlight. Everyone was just staring at me and Harry. Some fans who turned up at the premiere sounded very happy about mine and Harrys relationships, but others were going crazy. One person in the crowd held a sign saying 'Zarry ruined 1D'. This was not true, the boys are fine with all of this, but it still hurt to read this.
I dont know what i would do without these boys by my side right now. My four best friends. They kept reasurring me that everything was going to be okay. Im not sure it is.
------Louis p.o.v--------
Im still not happy with Zayn and Harry, but i want Zayn as my friend more than anything, so i guess i am going to have to move on. He told me he was going to be there for me always, and i believe him.
Even though all of us individually have been trying hard to not offend the boys or make them feel judged, there is a tension in the group. Everyone seems to be ignoring it, but it is so obvious that it is there. Zayn or Harry have barely spoke to us other boys, i dont see how this is going to work. Im not going to say anything though, im just gonna let them get on with. They've already decided what they want now, and there is no going back.
----------Harrys p.o.v------------
I was having fun, like the rest of the boys. Until some crazy teenaged runs out of the surrounding crowd and starts beating me with a stick. She hits me around three times before Zayn is by my side standing in the way, then security arrive a second later, carrying the girl away. When she was hitting me, she shouted 'you cant be gay Harry!' she looked genuinely upset. What is this?! Why cant i decide who I am with? Why cant people accept that i want to be with Zayn and just be happy for me?! I cant do this, i cant stay here after that! I couldnt stop shaking! I pulled Zayn to the side and we decided to leave the premiere early. We thought we could do this, be we cant. We decided to go home, the only place we are going to get quite and not get judged, and quite frankly, not get attacked by crazy people.
'Zayn this is harder than i thought, what are we going to do? if this happens everytime we go outside? how can we live like this? there is always going to be people like her out there!' i was crying, as i explained to him, i cannot believe what just happened! i was still shaking! He just looked up at me 'I know Harry, i cant take it! You getting hurt is the last thing i want! It cant be like this Harry!' Zayn was getting upset too now. I know he is right. We cant be in One Direction and be together. Life in the band is too public and too dangerous to be toether, it could never work out. So it was down to me and Zayn, One Direction or be together, and we had no idea what to do, but i know, that i cant be without Zayn, ever.
--------Zayns P.o.v-----------
It has come down to choosing. I never wanted this. Choosing between the boys and Harry is heartbreaking. But this, tonight, is too much! Harry actually getting physically attacked, it cant be like this! I dont want to loose one Direction but as soon as Harry said we had to choose, i knew my decision straight away. I cant be without Harry, and if that means not being in One Direction anymore then thats the way it has to be. As dissapointing as it is for it to have to come down to this, making a choice, it had to be done.
'So Zayn, what will it be then? are we staying in the band? because if we are, we cant do this anymore! its not fair on the boys!' Harry was crying. I cant handle Harry crying. 'Harry, i love the boys, they're my friends, my brothers in fact, and One Direction is one of the best things that has ever happened to me' I told him. His face drops and he pulls away from me. 'Stop!' and he just stays as he is. 'One Direction has been a journey, but we belong together Harry!' i explained. 'But that Journey is over, and its time we started on our Jourey" i knew leaving the boys would be hard, but leaving Harry is not even a choice, i could not do it.
He just stood there. Staring at me. 'We..' harry started, but he was still crying and was struggling to get his words out. 'We are going to be together Harry' i explained. He stood there smiling. This was it. 'We have to be' Harry got closer to me, this was meant to be. 'I know' i replied. I took him in my arms and just held him. I could feel his body shaking from crying so much and he is probably still in shock from the attack! How can someone go that low? to actually attack someone?! it makes me sick. 'Hey, how do you feel? you're still shaking! did she hurt you?!' i ask him cupping his face in my hands. I hate seeing him this weak. 'A little, im just shocked, i cant believe someone could do this! but its nothing you cant fix' he smiles. I just stare in to his eyes, this is what i want. What i need, Harry Styles.
