Cross My Heart And Hope To Die (~Please Be My Saviours Sequel~)

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Where am I?

Why do I feel so bad?

"Doll?" I heard a voice say beside me as I immediately open my eyes to be greeted by Tony. "Sorry" was all that came out as an answer.

He quickly shook his head. "Don't worry about it.. Accidents happen." He smiled as he traced his finger on my new placed bandage around my arm.

"W-where's Josh?" I ask anxiously
"He's on his way.. I'm really sorry." He looked at the ground sadly
"I have to face him you know turtle" I said sitting up on the bed as as Tony helped me. He quickly shook his head.
"No, no, no. You don't have to. I'll push him out the house" I smiled at his attempted to help me. But I knew the best thing to do was to face him. Accept the fact that maybe it was an accident. But still.

I opened my mouth to speak but I didn't have time as the door opened leading to a tired Mike. "Are you okay?" Was all he asked as he slowly made his way towards me. It was like a was contagious. But I wasn't, I tried to kill myself.. Again.

I nodded silently as he sat down on the bed and hugged me tightly
"Please stop" he whispered in my ears as I felt tears come up in my eyes. I had to keep them in, I had too. I couldn't- I didn't want to cry again..

*****

I was sitting on the couch eating cereal when my heart stopped.
Literally.
Someone knocked on the door.
And I immediately knew who it was
"Hey man, is she okay?"
Joshua.

I started to get up as Vic helped me, incase I would fall. Like always. I made my way to the door holding myself onto Mike's shoulder. I was shaking. I could collapse right now.

Keep straight.

I wanted to hang myself right now.

"Hey." I whispered holding myself on tighter onto Mike's arm.
"Can I talk to you?" Josh asked reaching his hand out so I could take it to go outside.

I quickly turned my head to Tony who's eyes were begging me to go and talk to him
And then looked at Jaime who's eyes were begging me to stay.

I didn't have time to do anything Mike went behind me and grabbed my shoulders as he whispered in my ears "you know what you want, but you're scared. Get out and be you. Be yourself, the old cute amazing doll we know" I smiled sadly at his words as I slowly grabbed Josh's hand as his eyes lit up, we both made our way outside.

***

"I screwed up" he whispered as he were both sitting on the grass in front of the house.
"No shit Sherlock" I said slightly angry
"I'm sorry."
"One thousand sorries, won't work. You do know what you did wrong. Do you?" I looked at him as he looked at the ground nodding slowly. But my self conscience told me it wasn't real. It wasn't- really something he meant.
"Joshua Ramsay! I swear!" I yelled as he jumped back at the sound of his name.
I passed my hands in my hair as I took a deep breath.
"Aly.. I know you don't believe me. I know you way more than you think, and y-you screaming my name meant everything, not in the wrong way, you don't believe me, but if I can do anything to like- prove you that I really am sorry than I will." I looked at him straight in the eyes. Blue pale eyes, tears were forming in his eyes.

I took a deep breath.

"You know what you did?"

"I slept with another girl. I-I fucked up shit real good this time." I nodded. This time he meant it

I took another deep breath. I knew what I had to do. And that's exactly what I did..

"Josh listen I-" I didn't have time to finish my sentence.

His lips crashed into mine.

Stupid I am

I didn't even push him back.

Why?

You guessed it before reading the rest

I'm in love with Joshua Keeler Ramsay.

He pulled back and rested his forehead on mine.

"I'm sorry.. I-I really am.." I looked at him straight in the eyes as he said that. A tear was streaming down his cheek.

Matt must have punch him back to his senses.

I couldn't even stand seeing him crying. Or myself broken one more time.

"You never let me finish my sentence Josh.." I smiled sadly as he looked at the ground jumping to conclusion to quickly.

I'm not breaking up with you.

"Josh look at me.. Please?" He slowly lift his head up as I smiled.

He was broken inside and out. You could see it.

I swear Matt did you kill him and bring him back to life? Or did he literally blame himself for everything.

I didn't even take time, I kissed him again. I could feel him smile into the kiss as he putted his hand on my cheek bringing me closer.

We soon pulled back.

"I'm not breaking up with you, never, ever. I don't know if I could even stand the fact breaking up with you" I whispered as he looked at my arm bandage. He slowly started to trace the nonexistent scars over it.

"I love you" he smiled kissing me again.

***

"You can walk." He smiled as we were both laying down on the grass as I was cuddling against him. I nodded smiling.

"Thank Alex and Jack" I giggled as he kissed the top of my head. "I will.. I love you"

"I love you too Josh"

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I feel awkward writing this cheesy chapter I'm sorry I suuckkkkk.