Can't Resist: a shisa fanfic

Chapter four

Shane's POV

I pull her petite body closer to me. I rest my chin on her head, inhaling the scent of her sweet lavender shampoo. She curls into my side and puts her hand on my knee. "I love you so much," she whispers. I kiss her hairline, shutting my eyes with a smile.

"I love you, too."

She pats my knee, signaling for me to look at her. I remove my chin off of her head and look into her eyes. Tears trickle down her cheeks. I quickly use my thumb to wipe some of them away. I kiss her forehead and slowly rock her in my arms. She grips onto me as tightly as she can. I tuck a strand of her hair out of her face and behind her ear. "This sucks," she says shakily.

I let out a small chuckle and nod, "I know." She now sits in my lap, her face buried in my shirt, surely leaving tear stains. But I don't mind. I rub her back soothingly as she cries into me. Putting my hands on either side of her shoulders, I push her back a little so that she is now eye level with me. She looks down at the couch and fidgets with a loose thread on the cushion.

"Look at me honey," I say softly. She slowly looks up at me and let's out a sob.

The tears finally fall from my eyes when I see how broken she looks. I have been trying to remain strong to help her calm down, but I couldn't hold back any longer, "It's going to be okay. We are still going to be best friends. And it's not going to be like most couples who say that but never talk again. We aren't like that, we never will be. We aren't ending this on a bad note. Nobody cheated, nobody lied, nobody was distant. It just is what has to happen. We know this is what we have to do. But it's going to be fine. I promise you. I would never break a promise," I say with a small smile.

She nods sadly. I cup her face in my hands causing her eyes to wander down to my lips. We both simultaneously lean in and press our lips to one another's, the last kiss we would most likely share. Our kiss is slow and tender at first. I rest my hands on her hips and she wraps her arms around my neck. The kiss slowly becomes more passionate as she removes my shirt and I remove hers.

She runs her hands down my chest and breaks the kiss to look at my half naked body. She continues further down until she reaches the waistline of my shorts. She removes them so that I sit underneath her clad in only my boxers. She slides her skirt off of her legs and tosses it aside. We stare into each other's eyes as I take off her panties and my boxers. She unhooks her bra and throws it behind the couch. My eyes take a few moments to rake her now bare body. She squirms in embarrassment on top of me.

My eyes flicker back up to hers. Her cheeks are a light shade of pink. "You're beautiful. You always have been and you always will be," I say barely above a whisper. She bites her lip before kissing me once again. I change our position so that she's now lying down with me hovering over her, my hands on either side of her body. For the remainder of the day, we make love and cuddle afterwards before I leave her alone with Corny and we begin our new life as friends.

I let out a sad sigh at the memory as I scroll through old pictures of she and I. It probably is not a good idea to be doing this to myself right now, it certainly is not helping me get over her. I force myself to close out of my photos and stop torturing myself. Instead, I decide to dial Garrett's number and ask him if we can meet somewhere to talk. If I want to be with him, I cannot wait around for him to call me. Who knows if he would ever talk to me again. He picks up after the third ring.

"Hey Garrett, before you say anything just hear me out please." He doesn't respond so I continue, "I want to be with you. Only you. Not Lisa or anybody else. I already told Lisa that I choose you. Can you come over or we can meet somewhere to talk this ou-"

"I'll be over in 10," he says before hanging up. A grin spreads across my face. I wasn't expecting him to agree that easily. But I can't get my hopes up yet, he is just coming to talk about the chance of us maybe getting back together. He could still say no.

I impatiently wait for him to get here, scrolling through my Instagram feed and liking a few pictures. As I scroll through, I stop when I see Lisa's username pop up. She posted a picture of her and Jessica, her best friend and my podcast co-host, doing a silly pose with Corny in Jessica's arms. I decipher whether to like it or not. No, she hates me, I think to myself. I scroll past it and like a few pictures my friends posted when the doorbell rings. I stand up, fix my hair and brace myself before opening the door.

Garrett gives me a small smile after I gesture for him to come in. I shut the door and follow him into the living room. We sit down with him a good distance apart from me. An awkward silence fills the air for a good three minutes before he speaks up, "Didn't you want to talk?"

I nod and look at him apologetically, "Yes, I just don't know how to start I guess." He nods and looks down at his phone.

"Okay, how about you tell me what you think about what I said over the phone," I say. He puts his phone aside, folds his hands in his lap and looks at me.

"Okay well, I think we should give this another shot. I care about you a lot and the time we spent together was amazing. But you have to promise me you're over Lisa and nothing will happen. I don't want to be that annoying jealous boyfriend, but I just don't want to get hurt again," he says.

I scoot closer to him and pull him into my side. I hesitate before answering, "I promise I'm over her." But I'm not, I don't know if I ever will be over her.

He smiles and we share a short kiss. We cuddle on the couch hate watching YouTubers, like we always do, for almost two hours. Garrett turns off the tv and turns to me with a smirk. I raise my eyebrow, "What?"

"Let's go somewhere!"

"Like?" I question.

He thinks for a few moments, "How about Target?"

I let out a laugh, "Okay, it's not like we've been there a thousand times before."

He shrugs and we get ready to go.

"Hey Shane!" I hear Garrett yell from a few aisles over causing me to chuckle and shake my head. I laugh when I see him rushing towards me, holding a huge rice crispy treat.

"We have to get this!" He says holding it in front of my face.

"Fine, maybe we could make a video with it or something," I say. Garrett says something, but I stop listening to him when I hear a very distinct giggle in the aisle next to us.

"Jess, no we are not getting that!" She says sternly.

Fuck, that's definitely her. She can't see me with Garrett, that will kill her. I've already hurt her enough. I try to think of a plan, but it's too late. "Shane? Hi!" Jess says from behind me, causing me to spin around to face her. Lisa must not of told her about what happened. Or if she did, she's just being friendly to me. I can hear my heart beating so loud that I almost think they can hear it, too.

"Hey," I say, a fake smile plastered on my face. I can feel Lisa's eyes burning a hole through my face. I keep my eyes on Jess. She smiles and looks to the right of me.

"Who's that?" She asks.

Garrett takes a step forward and I glance at him. Something about his features makes him look a little jealous. I cringe when he grabs my hand and squeezes it. "I'm Garrett, Shane's boyfriend." I remove my hand from his and put it in my pocket.

"Yes, this is my boyfriend."

I finally look at Lisa. She looks like she is about to break at any second. Whether that be break out in tears or break out in screaming, there's no way to tell. Maybe both. Jess looks between the three of us, confused as ever. "Well congratulations! I'm happy for you," she says to me.

I can't tell if she genuinely means that or if she just wants to break the awkward silence. If I were to guess, I'd say the latter. I smile in response. Lisa nods slowly. "We should go," she says with gritted teeth, pulling Jess with her.

We say our goodbyes and I head back home, dropping Garrett off at his place. I'm pretty sure he's mad at me, too. Great, back at square one.

Okay so that was chapter 4, hope you guys liked it! Chapter 5 is going to be very interesting, so get ready. ;)
-Hannah