Music- feels like forever by of mice&men
Far too young to die by panic at the disco
Backseat serenade by all time low
I haven't realized it yet but I will. I don't catch feelings often but he makes me want to fall in love all over again. He will be the guy I think. I'm not sure if it's because I've been hearing about relationships all around me more then I was and I'm now realizing that I really want someone important to me or maybe because I genuinely like him. But I think it might be genuine because I catch myself staring at him and smiling often. He doesn't talk to me often. He probably doesn't even care I exsist, but I care about him. Not deeply, but there is care. He's like so smart. And he's a good person too. I can't exactly explain it because it won't make sense but I just know he is. I'm afraid though. I think about me and a relationship sometimes and I get scared. I don't like love or anything related to love. I can't seem to figure myself out when it comes to love. I'm a scorpio and I'm supposedly the one who always falls in love and always has heart break. I think the second one is true maybe, but I don't have a heart so it can't break. I've tried so hard to the point when I realize I love someone that I completely push them away and out of my life. I'm afraid they will leave. Love never ends well. I can't do relationships. But for some reason I feel like he will be the one I fall for. I don't like falling. Falling means pain, lots and lots of pain. I wish it was simple. I wish if you fell in love with someone there was no such thing as heart break. I find him on my mind often, too often. I keep saying he will be the one I fall for but maybe I should be saying that he will be the next one to break my heart.
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Non-FictionWhy do feelings have to come up out of no where and make you feel when you were perfectly fine numb?
