The People

Emotions

Songs- lullaby by niykee heaton
I'm ready by niykee heaton
Infinity by niykee heaton

There's those days where you don't feel like yourself and you feel off, but you just don't know why. I have weeks of that instead of the regular days for normal people. I can't exactly choose one thing that is bothering me the most but there is multiple things that are. I hate when I'm confused by myself and I don't understand what's wrong with me. It's actually scary because if I don't know what's wrong I can't fix it and if I can't fix it then I cannot get better. Maybe I don't want to be better. Maybe I'm meant to be this way. I don't think what I feel is even a feeling. I don't even understand what it is. I make decisions too fast when I'm in this state. I manipulate myself to believe that's what I want but it's not and then I realize later that I need to stop and pace myself. I always do, but I am not allowing myself. I can't control what emotion it is, but I know that I really am feeling whatever it is.

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