REWINDING US

Chp 9: Building it up!

Nandini

I was searching for Cabir when I saw one of his friends coming towards me. They were together most of the time so must be a friend only. Yeah! My hardworking brain was focused on it's job.

"Woah! Look who's back! Nandini Murthy is it? Wow! You have changed. A lot."

He said. Uff! What yaaa. I am tired of listening the same sentence again and again.

"Hey!", I replied and smiled as confidently as I could. Aryaman told me not to show everyone that I don't remember anything but instead I should first listen to what they are saying, unknown to the fact that I don't remember anything and then judge on my own whether they deserve to know the truth or not. In this way I'll be able to use my brain and I can try to join the tit bits of every information related to my past.

Moreover, I should not look like a weak person which I am really not! And apart from that since most people know that I've come back from Canada so there must be some noticeable changes in my behaviour and attitude that I should be flaunting.

But this would work here only if Cabir and that other guy who was with them..umm Manik, would not have told him the truth already.

"Well it's really good to see you back. I know we never had a proper conversation but I recently got to know that I played a really important role in your life earlier. I don't know if you are aware of that. And I really want to apologise to you about you know.."

"What is it with everyone and apologies today? Is it always important to go away to make the other person realise your worth?"
I involuntarily asked cutting him in between.

Okay.
He definitely doesn't know the truth. But what did I just say? And why? Dude! I have no bloody idea what he was going to tell.
Was I always this impulsive?

But really, I am fed up of these confessions and apologies. Why couldn't these people say all of this to me when I was here, when there words would have meant something to me. Ab kyaa fayda?

"I understand what you're talking about.."

Wow! One smart man you are.  Mujhe samjh aya nahi maine kyaa kaha, ise sab aa gaya.

"but Nandini you should now forget everything and give life another chance."

He said and I laughed.

"What's so funny?", he asked.

He doesn't know the irony of the situation. I could have explained but..

"Nothing."
I replied still smiling.

"Nandini, you were gone for so long and a lot has been changed since then, a lot. In fact, I'm sure you too must have changed but if not, then you should. Please stop basing your decision on others' opinion and stop caring so much about what might happen. Do whatever you want to do . Live your life on your conditions. You both always cared about what others might think and that's what went wrong in the end. That's what ruined everything."

Both?

Basing your choices and decision on other's opinion sounds gross anyway! And he's making it sound like I've done that all my life. Weird.

"I've learnt that and don't worry will implement that too."

'Maddddyyyyyyyy'
We both heard someone calling out. He signalled him that he'll be coming in few seconds.
Okay!
Maddy!
Registered.

"Okay then. I'll see you around" He said and I nodded.

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