Female reaper (jax teller

Chapter 9

being released from the hospital is the best thing ever I hate that place. being back at the clubhouse all the guys were telling me to stay off my feet and rest but I couldn't my mind was diving me crazy with the though of my fault if one of the club members gets hurt. being under a car fixing for a customer when I got dragged out.

"What the fuck?" I yelled at the guy who dragged me out from work ..... jax

"i need your help Ray" he looked so broken when he said that

"why whats happened tell me now Jax your scaring the shit out of me"....... he just stood there "JAX WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON"

"Abel he's been taken by the irish please your like his mum Ray you've been there from the beginning" a tear fell down his cheek and I was in tears Abel was like my child and not Wendy's I was there with Jax when he held him for the first time I held him second then Gemma, Jax cut my thoughts short as he said something that I loved.

"when we get Abel back will you be his mother I don't give a shit about Tara right now and what she'll think but Abel already thinks of you as his mum and I made the biggest mistake of my life with having Abel with Wendy when it should've been you, you'll always be his mother to me so will you adopt him when we get him" I smiled and hugged Jax then a thought come to mind I looked up at Jax

"how'd they get Abel?" he didn't answer again so I used the term I knew would "Jax how'd they get my son?" he looked up at me shocked but grinned that I called him my son

"Half-sack was protecting Tara and he got stabbed and the irish had a gun on her and took Abel.....Ray they took my boy, our son" he broke down in my arms and I got up full of anger

"come on Jax we're going to get our son back and I don't give a shit what we have to do to get him back" he saw the anger in my eyes and got the same look and we both stormed into the clubhouse to juice. I was on the war path and I don't care, whoever stands in my way is going to get it.

I walked up to juice and grabbed him by the collar "find the fucking irish I want to know where my fucking son is" I said and let go of him.

it has been a few hours, it was around 9:30 and Juice told us he was at the dock which made us get on our bikes but as we got to the dock the boat was set sail and was nearly gone, we just fucking missed them. as I looked I looked to Jax and I was taking off my cut I got stopped as I was literally going to jump but as I got stopped I broke down and cried chibs had me where Tig and Clay had Jax.

for the next few months I was in my dorm at the clubhouse just sat there utterly blank, nothing had ever affected me this much not even seeing my supposed dead fiancée but he left me to go back home and his job, I heard that the boys had put Jax in a detox since they come up with a lead. it had been an two hours since the boys went out and I'm still staring at the same wall as I had been that night with 5 empty bottles on my bed next to me. suddenly the door opened and Jax was there he picked me up and put me in the shower and turned it on till I came out of my hypnosis state.

"what the fuck" I said removing water from my face

"sort yourself out where getting our son back" I jumped out of the shower to change into dry clothes I didn't care that Jax was in the room.

once I was changed me and Jax made our way out to see what was happening

"ok so whats this big lead?" Jax asked

its been a week since me and Jax have sorted ourselves out, Tara has been with Gemma since Jax has seriously fell out with her and me and the lads have been holding everything up but I am going out of my mind with worry. the guys are talking about Abel since we are in church but I cant handle it. I walk to my room and I someone come in, when I see Jax it gets better he hugs me and one thing led to another, we ended up sleeping with each other.