I'm Still In Love With You (Jahvie)

I don't understand!

5 months later
*Jayy's POV.*
I was heading over to Dahvie's for a party me and Madalyn decided to throw for him.
It had been five months now since he was diagnosed with diabetes and he was doing well. He was healthy and he even started to work out so when he went to the doctor yesterday it was better than before but still not gone. I was worried for him but I knew he was strong. My Dahvie has always been strong.
I rang the door bell and waited for someone to answer.
"I'm coming!" I heard Madalyn yell from inside. She opened the door and invited me in.
"Wheres Dahvie?" I asked looking around.
"He's coming home soon from the gym and he still has no idea about this. His parents should be here very soon too." She walked over to the window and peered out to see if anyone else was there. I looked around at the black and multie colored ballons that had been place all around the house. I followed them down to his bedroom. A place I hadn't been in for a very long time. I peaked in through the cracked door at his bed. I smiled looking at all the old stuffed animals and blankets that held memories. I sat down on the bed and grabbed this old bear I gave him a few years ago. I grasped it in my hands and smiled down at it.
"I can't believe he's kept it all this time." I said to myself.
"He really loves that thing." I looked up to see Madalyn standing in the door way with a big smile on her pale face. She came and sat beside me.
"He sleeps with it every night." She put her hand on my back.
"R-really?" I felt my cheeks heat up but I held my blush back. She nodded then looked into my eyes then got a questionable look on her face.
"Jayy can I ask you something?" I paused for a second.
"Sure." She sighed and took a deep breath.
"Is Dahvie gay or something?" She asked seemingly very confused. I gave a little laugh.
"He's not going to admit it but...he came out as bi a couple of years ago before we got together but he went back in the closet once we broke up." I sqeezed the bear thinking about our time together. She looked at me not to surprised. I guess Dahvie seems really gay.
"Wow. I didn't know that..." She was cut off from his parents and a few more of our close friends coming through the front door. She gave me a smile them left to greet them. I laughed again to myself of the irony of his girlfriend asking if he was gay.
"Wow." I sighed to myself then looked around. His room was decorated with old memories such as posters, gifts, stuffed animals, music and clothes. Some of which I gave him that I can't believe he even kept.
Everyone began talking in the living room so I decided I should go back out there so they'll know I'm here. I walked into the living room to only be showered in kisses by his mom. She was basically my second mom and she loved me so much even though I was the one to take her son's "butt virginity"
I laughed to myself at my thought but then we all froze in our steps when Madalyn yelled. "Dahvie's here!" We all scrambled to get behind things and in dark corners with the light of. Madalyn got by the light switch so she can turn the light on as soon as we all yell at him. Even in a dress and platform boots she managed to crouch down and was ready to pounce.
I heard the door nob turn and a huge smile spread across my face ready to greet Dahvie. He came through the door and..."SURPRISE!" We all yelled as Madalyn turned the light on. Some of us even through confettie. Dahvie screamed and punched Madalyn not sure of what was going on.
"Oh my god!" I laughed running over to her.
"I am so so sorry Madalyn!" He almost cried to her. She was holding her face but still had a big smile.
"Its okay Dahvie. I shouldn't catch you off guard." She giggled a little and we all laughed.
"W-what is this?"

*Dahvie's POV.*
After a long afternoon in the gym I headed back to my house to relax by taking a nice bubble bath. I skipped up to my door and came in throwing my keys down.
"SURPRISE!" the light switched on and a person came towards me. I was scared shitless so I punched them! I then looked up and saw everyone near and dear to me that's when I noticed I had just punched Madalyn.
I apologized to her with tears stinging my eyes but she said it was okay even though she was holding her face in pain.
"W-what is this?" I asked looking around. Madalyn grabbed my hands.
"Dahvie. We are all so proud of you and what you've accomplished in the past five months." My face heated up in a blush as everyone and even jayy was looking at me.
"So we through you this party for a clean bill of health!" Jayy exclaimed coming in with a big hug everyone then followed suit and we were all in a big ball of hugs that began to crush me.
"I'm all sweaty!" I gasped. Everyone jumped back from me after noticeing. We all laughed then gave a few more quick hugs.
"I'm going to take a quick shower and change." I said walking to my bathroom. I felt bad for leaving right after showing up but I didn't want to smell bad all through this amazing party.
*after quick and naked shower. Lol*
I jumped out of the shower and began to dry myself off then realized I had no clean clothes but that wasn't a big deal since my bathroom is in my bedroom. I walked out with a towel wrapped around me and was surprised to see Jayy sitting on the bed. I jumped a little at his presence. Jayy looked up from a brightly wrapped gift with a big smile.
"What are you doing?" I asked picking my clothes I had set out but forgot off of the dresser.
"I got you something but I wanted to give it to you alone." I glared at him kinda weird but I felt loved. I left back to the bathroom to get dressed and came back out.
"Shut the door." He demanded looking over to the door to my bedroom. I shut it then sat down beside him.
"Dahvie..." He began. I scooted closer.
"I really care about you and...when you told me that you were ill I felt a little piece of me die. I was so scared that something bad was going to happen to you..." He trailed off fighting back tears that was starting to form in my eyes too. He cought is breath.
"But when I found out things were getting better and that you still had your spirit I felt so much better about all of this. So..." He handed me the box and motioned me to open it. I looked up at him and he wiped the single tear off of my cheek. I blushed then started opening his gift. It wasn't a big gift so I expected a pair of earings or jewelry but when I opened if I got much more. It was a beautiful white crystal necklace and you could tell it was real. It was the most beautiful thing I have ever seen.
"J-jayy?" I choked up. He grabbed my hand.
"This white crystal symbolises spirit and pretty much my spirit in you." He got closer to me. Another tear fell from my eye but he caught it before it made its way down. This was so sweet. The sweetest gift I have ever gotten. I threw the string over my head and dropped it down. I looked down at the beautiful crystal.
"Jayy...that's so sweet and beautiful. Thank you so much." I wrapped my arms around him and he did to me. We just sat there in a warm embrace and it felt so amazing. My heart did that skipping a beat but beating faster than ever thing again and I could hear his beating fast too. I looked up into his eyes and they were full of passion. The beautiful grey caught me as the feeling warmed up my chest and face. I then felt myself being pulled in by an invisible force field. Closer and closer to his lips. I didn't fight it back. He derseved this kiss and seemed to want it. Our lips touched and sparks flew. It felt so incredible as his soft lips moved against mine in a intense passionate kiss that I never wanted to end.
I pulled back after about a minute and gazed into his eyes. He smiled and let out a breath.
"That was...wow." He said laying his forehead on mine. I blushed and I definitely agreed. We stared into each others eyes for what felt like forever until our lips touched again seemingly against my will. This one was a little more heated and lasted a lot longer. They moved together almost lustfully now making me get closer, almost all the way into his lap. He put his hands on my sides and mine went for his hair. It was getting even more heated now. I then felt his tongue lick my lips begging to get in. I let it and for the first time in forever I could taste him. A taste indescribable. A taste that was all him. I tugged a little at his hair as our tongues carrased in a long make out that I've been craving. He dug his nails into my sides and pulled me onto his lap and I just couldn't resist him. He bit my lip almost making me moan but I tugged his hair and he let out a little moan into my mouth. I couldn't take it if this was going to continue I was going to end up doing something I'll regret later but I just couldn't pull away from him as our tongues danced in each others mouths. His hands slid down my back right above my butt and I dug my hands deeper into his hair. I then almost unknowingly started to grind my hips against his. He pulled me close and I finally let out a moan. I want him so bad right now and I'm not sure what's happening to me or what's going on. I was going crazy and I wanted him to just fuck me right now until I couldn't walk and to never let my lips go nor me.
He pushed my hips down hard on him and I pulled his hair making him moan a little letting my lips go. I bit mine and he smirked at me. His lips then trailed down my neck giving me chills he then sunk his teeth into ny skin and stared to gentally suck. It felt so good and gave me a tingally sensation but then I came to my senses when I heard Madalyn say something back to my mom. I stopped all together and jumped back off of him. He looked as if he lost something.
"I-Im sorry Jayy. We can't do this. I'm with Madalyn and I don't want to cheat..." I trailed off not knowing what else to say. He scratched his head.
"Its okay. I understand. I shouldn't have kissed you." I grabbed his hand.
"No, I'm glad you did kiss me." He smiled big then kissed my cheek making me blush.
After a few more minutes of calming down we headed out for the party which lasted almost all night but I couldn't help but to think of Jayy the entire time. What is going on with me?