I'm Still In Love With You (Jahvie)

I can't explain

(7 months later)
*Dahvie's POV.*
"Jayyyyy!" I screamed at the top of my lungs when I exploded all over his stomach. Jayy clentched my thighs and moaned my name and I could tell he to had finished. We were panting over each other. He laid over on the other side of me.
"Dahvie..." He sighed with a smile. I smiled back at him then put my hand on his chest giving him a kiss.
"I said we were only going to do that once but....I fucking crave that. I crave you." I said bitting my lip.
"Mmmm. I crave you to. You have such a sweet taste." He said winking. I laughed and walked to the bathroom. I can't believe we've been doing that for the past 7 months. I've been having SEX with a MAN seemingly more than with my own girlfriend but she can never know.
Having sex with him didn't change the feelings I seemed to have developed a few months ago. If anything it made things worse but I just can't quit him. I sighed not being able to handle my feelings.
"I've got a doctors appointment later." I called out to him. My health had gotten so much better. I've lost 45 pounds! And I am so fucking proud of myself and today I'm going to get checked to see how the diabetes is. If its gone or....staying for good. Jayy walked in with his shorts on with a smile.
"I hope things are good." He gave me a quick kiss on the lips we then heard the front door open and close. Madalyn was home. I still really liked being with her but I don't think I love her anymore in that way. I just seemed to switch my feelings with her and Jayy but I'm straight now...at least I think I am.
Jayy walked back into my room and threw his shirt on before Madalyn came in.
"Where's Dahvie?" I heard her ask. I was only in my boxers but I already had a lie planned if she asked why. She came in and looked me up and down then shut the door behind her.
"What's up Madalyn." Her face was serious so I began to worry. She sighed.
"Are you gay?" She asked not even looking at me. I was slightly shocked but kind of understood why she questioned me.
"N-no...why?" She pulled her phone out of her pocket then showed me a picture. It was of me and Jayy from another "girls" day out from about a week ago. We had got in the back seat for a rividing "quickie" but I'm not sure how someone got a picture of us when I thought no one was around.
"I found this on Instagram today....how do you explain?" She asked crossing her arms. I just shook my head not knowing what to do. I can't even explain it to myself. Why I kept doing this and why I even wanted to.
"So you just want to cheat on my with your best friend?" I just continued to shake my head and look to the ground. She sighed and tapped her foot.
"It was dm'd to me by someone I don't know but it wasn't posted so your fucking perfect image isn't ruined" she stormed out and a sharp pain traveled through my chest. Tears started to roll down my cheaks because I knew I just lost my best friend. Jayy walked in and looked at me concerned.
"What just happened?" His voice calmed me but at the same time pissed me off. If I wouldn't sleep with him I wouldn't be confused! I wouldn't have just lost my best friend and girlfriend.
"Go away!" I shouted backing away with tears falling onto my chest. He looked hurt but reached out. I slapped his hands away.
"Just fucking leave! I can't understand anything right now!" He pulled his hands back and his face hardened. He slapped his hands to his sides and stormed out, picked up his shoes then left. I had just chased away everyone I really cared about just because I'm ficking stupid! I punched the wall then started to cry harder to the point I was screaming.
After about an hour of crying I had to gather myself so I could go to the doctor. The pain was still there but I had to face people with my normal happy appearance.
*after the doctors*
I was almost gitty with happiness. My diabetes was gone! But I of course have to stay healthy. After posting it on Instagram I went to starbucks to celebrate by myself since I have chased everyone away anyway. I walked in and got my normal crepped out looks from people as I sat down. After looking through my Instagram waiting for the waiter I noticed some woman looking at me from about two tables away. Her glare was making me uneasy but the waiter finally came and broke the stare. After ordering my usual I looked up at the woman and she smiled at me giving me goosebumps but it was from feeling gaucked at. I looked away almost annoyed. She then came and sat across from me forcing me to look up at her again.
"I couldn't help but to notice you were alone." She spoke while repositioning her hair. Now that I could look at her she had big boobs, a fake tan, skinny and in normal summer clothes with brown hair. She was the type of misleading hot not the actual hot.
"So...what your name?" She asked taking a sip from her starbucks. I sighed knowing she wasn't going to go away.
"Dahvie." She giggled trying to be cute.
"Mines Becca." I didn't care but I smiled anyway. The waiter then brought me my coffee and I sighed in relief of an excuse to leave.
"Wait, let's get something to drink." She said grabbing my hand. I pulled away from her but did like the idea of getting a little drunk to help me forget about all of my loss today. I sighed.
"Okay I see what's going on...let's go." I got out of my chair willing to go even though I knew she was just trying to sleep with me for some reason. Maybe she knew I was famous.
*back at home after the bar*
I was laying underneath the woman I had just met but I was sloppy drunk and didn't care. I was about to fuck a woman to prove I was straight.
"Come on Dahvie let's fuck." She begged biting her lip. I didn't care if I knew her or not I was drunk and she was a slut.
"Okay." I sighed.