I'm Still In Love With You (Jahvie)

All of these feelings

*Dahvie's POV.*
It was almost valentines day which meant I needed to start thinking about what I was going to get Madalyn who decided to stay with me after I convinced her that what happened with me and Jayy was a one time thing and....Becca. Yes I was "with" her. I wasn't dating her I'd just fuck her once in a while. I wasnt doing that with Jayy anymore though because I'm STRAIGHT so I have to act like it. Me and him haven't talked much since I yelled at him though and it hurt me but I blamed myself.
"Are you ready Madalyn?" I asked walking into the bathroom. She potiontioned her blonde wig one more time
"Yeah." She said smiling while walking towards me. She gave me a kiss and grabbed my hand walking me out. We were going on a date today and I wanted to show her one last great day before I....leave her. Yes, I was going to leave her. After valintines day so I could be with Becca to show her and everyone it was just a fling with him and I really was straight. I loved her but it was in a different way now. I don't think I love anyone right now.
We headed out to go to the salon so Madalyn could get her hair done, that's why she was wearing a wig, and I was going to do a sweet jesture for her.
" I'll see you in a bit" I said to Madalyn then kissed her goodbye. I left the salon and walked down the street to a local tea shop so I could get her favorite tea. When I walked in I was shocked to see Jayy sitting at a table alone and he looked as if he was crying or upset. I walked over to him despite us not talking for a while.

*Jayy's POV.*
Why won't he talk to me! I screamed in my head as I sat in the tea shop. I missed Dahvie so much but we just don't talk anymore and I'm still hung up on that time he yelled at me when I tried to help him but...
"Jayy?" I jerked up at Dahvie's voice to see his beautiful eyes looking back at me. I wiped my eyes pushing the tears away.
"Are you okay?" He asked sitting beside me. I shrugged looking away. I don't know whether to talk or not. I heard him sigh.
"I need to talk to you later." Was all he said before getting up and leaving. What did he mean what was he going to talk to me about?

*Madalyn's POV.*
Dahvie had been gone for about an hour now and I began to wander where he was. I hope he's not cheating on me again.
"Awww!" I heard my hair dresser coo and I turned around to see Dahvie holding a tea and a beautiful white rose.
"Here Madalyn....its your favorite." He handed me the tea and smiled big then gave me a kiss.
"Aww Dahvie you're so sweet!" I took a sip from my tea then he handed me the absolutely beautiful rose. It was white with pink feathered edge pedals and smelt amazing. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him in for another kiss. He pulled away with a big smile.
"I love you sooo much." I chirped.
"I love you too baby girl." He blushed and so did I
"Awww daddy." I latched back onto his lips. This was the first time in about the whole year we've been together he's called me that and I really loved it.

*Dahvie's POV.*
After spending some time with Madalyn after our date I decided to man up and go talk to Jayy about what's been going on with me. I needed someone to listen and to understand I just really needed to cry and be held instead of holding people myself.
"Madalyn I'm going to see Jayy real quick." I said heading to the door. Madalyn didn't really react as I left out the door. On the way over to his house my eyes started to sting as tears started to form from me rethinking my whole life and how I'm changing and how my feelings are changing so fast.
After ringing the door bell a dozen times Jayy answered with a not so happy look on his face. It hurt my heart to see him mad at me but I really needed to talk.
"Ca-can I come in?" I started to sniffle and his face got softer.
"Come on Dahvie." He pulled my arm hard into his house. He stopped me in the living room and looked at me with a hard face of anger but it started to get softer until a single tear fell from his eye and his lip started to quiver.
"Jayy?" I reached out for him worried and he burst into tears grabbing his head falling down onto the couch.
"What's wrong?" I asked sitting next to him and grabbing his arms.
"Don't act like everything is okay!" He hissed with tears flooding down his face. I jerked back afraid of his anger. He was a lot bigger than me and if he wanted he could hurt me very easily.
"Wh..."
"No Dahvie don't act like you don't know!" He began to get a more sad sound to his voice but I still had no idea what was making him upset and it began to hurt me.
"I-I don't know." I choked up as a tear fell down my cheek. He signed and just sat there. He looked down at me with a stern face then looked away.
"You don't...you don't fucking talk to me for like a month or more then when something goes wrong you come crawling back to fuck with my emotions!" He began to cry again and tears started to fall down my face more. I didn't mean to ruin his life.
"I-I just didn't want to ruin your life even more." I got up from the couch with tears streaming down my face and neck. I rushed over to the door to leave so I no longer would be a burden but then I felt a strong hand on my arm as I reach for the door.
"Just let me go! I'll just go die in a hole somewhere. That's all I'm good for." I tried to jerk away but he spun me around to where I was faceing him. He forced me to look up at him.
"You. Are. Not. Ruining my life Dahvie." He said with a strong voice. I shook my head not wanting to accept that I'm worth anything because I'm not!
"No! I fucking am I'm such a stupid piece of shit! I'm losing everyone so what's the point of being alive!?"
"Because I need you dammit!" He yelled before I had a chance to try to get away.
"Dahvie!" He shouted making me look at him as he cried.
"I-I....fucking love you!" He lowered his head and started to choke up but never let me go.
"Wh-what?" I asked confused. How did he mean it? He started to shake his head.
"I don't know. I just don't. I don't understand what's even happening to me." He looked up but not at me.
"I don't know what's happening to me either. Am a bisexual...do I love you again? I just don't fucking know." I spilled out everything that was wrong in that one sentence. I started to feel like I was bisexual again and that those weird feelings I developed is love...that I loved him again.
He looked into my eyes making a strong connection and it sent chills up my back.
"Dahvie. You mean so much to me. Don't ever say you should just die!" He grasped my shoulders and I took a deep breath.
"You...mean the world to me." I pushed through his hands and into his arms burring my face into his chest. It felt so good to be in his arms again and to just let it all out and to sorta tell him what's wrong.
I now knew I needed to figure myself out and to....leave Madalyn.