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*Madalyn's POV.*
It was the day before valentines day and I was excited to be with Dahvie the next day but he's been really distant lately and I don't know what's going on. Since the other night about 4 weeks ago when he left to talk to Jayy he's been acting weird and there's just no other way to explain it besides weird.
My phone started to ring and when I looked over it was Dahvie. I smiled to see his name and answered.
~"Hello?"
~"Madalyn I..." Dahvie trailed off.
~"You what?" I asked worried. There's was a long sigh.
~"I need my space to think." My heart ached when he spoke.
~"W-What do you mean?" I asked with tears forming in my eyes. He sighed again.
~"We need to....split up." I heard a choke at the end as tears fell down my face.
~"But why? What did I do?"
~"You didn't do anything I still want to be friends with you because you're a great person but I just need to figure myself out." I became furious.
~"Is it Jayy!?" I had been worried about him and Jayy. There was a long silence. Is that what it was?
~"N-No." Was all he could say.
~"I'm sorry Madalyn. I'd love to stay friends." I was still crying but I knew what it really was. He wanted Jayy and not me. You'd have to be blind and retarded to not see a weird connection between them.
~"I would too." I quietly said. Dahvie was great but I loved him more than friends but he doesn't love me anymore.
~"I-Im sorry I did this before valentines day." He said sounding guilty.
~"I was really looking forward to being with you but I guess I wasn't enough." I hung and and cried into my hands. I just lost the love of my life and my best friend. I wasn't mad at him but just upset.
I then got a notification on my phone and when I looked it was an instagram notification of Dahvie. It was a picture of him kissing some brown haired woman and it made my heart break even more.

*Dahvie's POV.*
"Did you do it?" Becca asked. I nodded my head to my new girlfriend who I didn't want but I had to act like I did so I'd seem straight and to distract me from Jayy who was really fucking with my emotions right now.
I had pretty much figured out that I wasn't straight but I can't seem to figure my emotions for him yet.
"Kiss me." She said handing me my phone. I knew she wanted to take a selfie and to post it onto instgram to celebrate something she was excited about even though I really wasn't. I took the phone from her and took a picture while we we're kissing and I posted it onto instgram for the whole world to see my false happiness.
"I love you." She said grabbing my shoulders. We had been talking for a couple of months so I could stomach being around her now but I definitely didn't love her I just liked to fuck her and she did have a good body.
"I....need to see Jayy!" I said pretending I had forgot that I had to see him for another album consltation to avoid telling her I loved her.
"Oh okay. I'll see you later daddy." Her voice made me quiver in a bad way as I headed out.

*Jayy's POV.*
I was sitting on my couch alone the day before valentines day missing a persons touch when I heard a knock at my door. I wasn't sure who it was going to be and was surprised to see Dahvie at the door.
"Hay Dahvie." I said with a little smile and I was actually really happy to see him.
"Hey. Can I come in?" He asked looking up at me with his big eyes.
"Sure...what's going on?" I asked as he walked in. He went over to the couch taking his jacket off then pulled up he shorts before sitting down. He signed and leaned over on his side. He gazed up at me and put his arms out like he was a baby.
"Cuddle with me." He begged with a cute voice. I smiled hard at him and sat down wrapping my arms around him and he laid on my chest. He took a big breath.
"I broke up with Madalyn." He said sadly but calmly. I squeezed him tight feeling bad but really happy that he was here with me.
"Why?" He looked me deep into the eyes.
"I just need to figure some things out." "Like what Dahvie?" He stayed quite for a while so I just started to stroke his soft fluffy hair. It smelt like beautiful cherry blossom and felt like a soft baby ribit once you got past the hair spray. I missed petting him like this. I really did miss him and loved him but I'm just not sure in what way I did right now. I know I was craving him though but just couldn't have him anymore.
He then leaned up off of me and sat on the edge of my couch. I put my hand on his back.
"What is it?" I asked about to lean up with him. He then quickly turned around and crawled into my lap straddling my thighs. He gazed into my eyes and they were full of lust and pain.
"Jayy....I need you so bad." He beckoned putting his fingers into my hair. My heart skipped a beat in anticipation for what he was about to do. He slowly leaned in as I put my hands to his sides. His lips were almost an inch from mine but he pulled back with a evil smirk.
"Why did you do that?" I asked gripping his firm ass and pushing his hips onto mine. He softly bit his lip then slowly slipped out of my lap. My hands clawed after him but he was to far now.
"W-What are you doin'?" I asked with a curious smile as he stood in front of me.
"Will you do me a huge favor?"
"Yeah." I huffed out as I watched him put his hands on my legs. He bit his lip.
"Its been to long." He almost moaned moving his hands from my legs then slowing up his torso.
"I want you to treat me like your slave." He grabbed a fist full of his hair biting his lip and pushing his body into a sexy curl. I clentched my fists wanting him so bad.
"Tell me what you want." He moaned leaning his head back and ran his hands back down himself. I bit my lip watching him rith in from of me. So vulnerable. So sexy.
"Come here my perfect little Dahvs." I leaned up and dug my fingers into his frame pulling him down onto me. I latched my lips onto his craving him more than ever. His soft plump lips pushed against mine in a lustful make out. He then pulled away and smirked at me.
"Tell me what you want master Jayy." His submission almost made me go crazy right then. I bit my lip rushing through my head at all of the possibilities. I then knew what I wanted. I slowly slip my hands under his shirt and onto his stomach and slowly lead them up and I could feel chills forming in his skin. Once I got to his shoulders I pulled his shirt off and looked over his sexy body.
"Will you do it?" I asked pecking his neck. I felt him nod his head and softly pull my hair making me almost moan. I smirked against his skin.
"Be my little Dahvie-Boo." I wrapped my arms around his waist and pulled his as close to me as possible. He looked down at me and smiled a warm smile with a cute blush. He was driving me crazy and at this moment I felt as if I loved him.
"Be mine for aleast tonight." I begged.
"I'll be everything you want." He subductivly cooed latching onto my lips. In a passionate make out I slowly slipped my hands down the back of his loose shorts and realized he wasn't wearing any underwear.
"Why aren't you wearing any...?" I laughed causing him to giggle.
"What were you planning coming over here?" He blushed.
"Not this." He said shaking his head and leaning in for a kiss but I pulled away smirking.
"So...are you my slave?" He nodded his head.
"You're my master." He moaned pushing his hips against mine making me really lose my mind. He's such a little tease.
"Then let's put a collar on you so you can't get any where." I winked and he laughed.
"I wouldn't try." He giggled leaning back into my lips.
I was going to be his master tonight.

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