INFINITY(ONE DIRECTION IMAGINE AND ONE SHOT BOOK)

Diana(one shot)

Asdeffkljkyrdy 6 years. Idek what to say. I thought I wouldn't update until I finish the books I've been working on, and I probably won't, but it's 1 d's bday (and mine, I'm v lucky Ik) and this is one special, hastily written chapter for you. Diana was supposed to have a back story but I didn't have time :( And yeah Dunkirk happened before MM here.

Diana was staring at her phone and smiling.

"Good morning, Diana." Diana looked up then smiled. It was her friend, Rose who had spoken. She closed her phone and wished her the same in return.

"I saw that you were blushing at the screen. What, or rather, who is it? Boyfriend? Crush? C'mon, tell me" Diana did not reply. She just smiled in response. Rose was from that particular species of girls who were absolutely boy crazy and tried to detect romance in even the dreariest of situations, but had a heart of gold. If Diana tried to address Rose every time she imagined such a thing, she'd never get anything done. So she'd given up trying long ago.

"Fine don't tell me. I'll find out." Rose chattered on."But guess what? They are going to start a new movie on floor 5, and we are assigned to it. And, one of them is apparently a boyband heartthrob,super handsome.Its his first movie.All the girls are absolutely crazy about him. But guess who's been assigned the movie duties? That's right.Us." For they worked as assistant directors."So, don't forget to put on your best dress and makeup, and let's see if can't set you two up . See you there." That said, Rose,not one to stay in one place for more than very short periods of time, got up and walked away.Diana rolled her eyes. No doubt she meant well, but her attempts usually ended in disasters.

But perhaps for the first time, her words had some truth in them. Diana looked at the phone for the last time, looking at the face she knew so well, the one that made her heart beat faster every time she saw it. Then she put down her phone and her dreams, and turned her attentions to the dreary, commonplace tasks she had to do. Another new actor, good looking and rude,always ordering her about. Nothing new, she thought, as she made her way to floor five.

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After she arrived, she had to complete the standard procedure that would allow her to pass. Then she made her way to Rose, who was looking super excited about something. "Oh my god Diana! He's so cute. Why are you so late. You didn't change? C'mon let's meet him!" She said this in 2 seconds, not giving Diana any chance to answer. Then she dragged Diana by her hand to where he must be. They had to wait sometime while the actors received their lines, after which all the people on the set would get to know each other.
They walked out and then...
...She saw him. Those curls, those green eyes looking into hers. It was him.

She ran out the room, ignoring the people calling her back. She ran to the washroom and locked herself in. She couldn't do it. Every day, every moment she had dreamed of seeing him. Meeting him was what she'd always wished for. She'd rehearsed what she'd say a million times. But actually seeing him there was too much. She didn't have the courage. Maybe she never did...

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*Harry sees her rushing out with an ashen face and follows her to see that she's okay. He sees her take a blade out of her pocket with a look of satisfied shame, and go into an abandoned costume room.*

"Hi. I'm Harry Styles. I don't think I've met"

Diana jumps and turns around. She was sure her crimson wrists were hard to miss, and fact that he didn't refer to them in spite of that made her grateful. He spoke," I won't imagine to know the amount of pain you must be dealing with or the reasons. But please. Come with me. Let me be the one lift your heart up and save your life. I don't think you'll even realize, but you'll be saving mine."

" I can't. You think I don't know you but I do. Just another fan. Nothing special. And I know there won't be a fairytale ou of this. But every time I look at you, I won't stop myself from imagining it. So I'm sorry. It isn't because I hate you, it's because I love you."

"I understand. But promise me, you'll never do it again." He turns to leave. " Oh, and you are special. Everyone is. Always remember that."
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Diana always kept her promise because now she had a little secret to keep her strong. And when Midnight Memories came out, she was just as surprised as everyone else.

OK so this is in no way meant to encourage self harm and I as an ex-self harmer, know it more than anyone else. I know what it feels like, so if any of you does that and needs someone to talk to, you can always pm me.

I should explain why Diana did that for something that would seem such a little thing. But it isn't for her. According to her back story, which I didn't have time to write, everything about her life was unsure except Harry. At the end the end of the day, when everything was uncertain and even if she can't count on anything else, she could on him. So when she realized this, even the little piece of home she'd built crumbled. And the pain from cuts is like a drug. When the emotional pain got too much and to uncertain to control, a bit of self inflicted pain made me feel like I'm in control and took my mind of it. But it isn't any different than drug addiction, and even potentially more dangerous, as you could slit a vein. You need to find something that makes you stronger, and draw  your strength from it, not something which causes you more pain in return to get rid of pain. That is in no way a solution. I have since stopped, and I hope it makes you realize that too . This was the first time I talked about this and it wasreally hard thing for me to do, but if it helped you, I'm glad. Remember, no matter what, I and 1D love you and am proud of you♥