'I'll miss you' I say softly. I get into the car, Connor doesn't react. The driver starts the engine. I wave at Connor. He then seems to scare up as he remembers something, he conjures the bottle that contains my pills out of his pocket. I smile and roll my window down. He hands it over to me and our hands touch for a brief second. 'Don't forget me' he utters, his voice on the verge of breaking. 'Never' I respond with a light smile. He looks down as he swallows the lump in his throat. His shoulders hang low. He looks up and I can see the tears that he's holding back in his eyes. 'You'll be back right?' he asks. I smile, trying to keep a positive energy. 'Of course' I respond. He nods slowly,
'take care'
'take care'
and with that I drive off. It's raining and there are puddles on the pavements we drive past. I imagine it being swimming pools. Empty swimming pools. I know Connor will get over it, He'll get past that wave of empty swimming pools. I won't. I see a lighthouse in the distance of my mind. A glimmer of hope, like an exhale of smoke, in the sky. But, I can't get there till I go through all of this pain. He'll get over it for sure, but for now, the light house is calling my name. I need to get there before my mind outruns me, or whatever's been going after me this whole time. I can't escape it, I can't escape myself. But I accept it, because my husband is just something else. And I imagine the water draining from the pools, because sometimes you gotta drain out all that used to feel right. Like an empty swimming pool.
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soooo that's a wrap. ♡
please vote and share and tell me what you thought of it in the comments because that makes my heart happy (:
I can imagine this story was a bit different. It started out actually as a script for a short film that I wrote for school and I thought I could turn it into a fanfiction, so I did lol. It was based on the life of F. Scott Fitzgerald and his wife Zelda Fitzgerald (Troye is Zelda and Connor is Francis in the fic btw) but then overly dramatized and romanticized and ofc I made it like all up but whatever.. hehe.. <__< >__>
I'm also writing a different tronnor story atm, it's called The Lost Boy and The Starseed and it's fluffier and more about the romance. So pls check that out. ♡
and now onto the shameless self-promooo
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bc I'm planning on writing a whole lot more of tronnor fics in the future. I have so many works in progress it's problematic. (see what I did there ayyee)
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we're in no way professionals btw but it was fun making the film, and we're kind of proud of what we've accomplished as non-professionals
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Traffic Lights ✓(tronnor)
Fanfiction"Every time I see a red light, a red traffic light, I just know something bad is going to happen. And it's my job to protect you" ---- I'm a dramatic bitch so be ready for some real tronnor problems, if you want to read fluff this fanfic is not for...
