Blue's Poetry

Empty Feelings

Why can't I sleep?

Why can't I die?

Why can't I say goodbye

Don't you know I want to go?

Away from the place that I was born

Into a quiet pit where I'm all alone

It's all going by so fast

People want me to help them

They seek me to protect them

But how can I do anything

If I'm already in agony

I'm not strong enough to help those I love

I'm not big enough to stop my friends

From hanging by a thread

High above

They need to leave me alone

Cause they were better off on their own

Then me leaving them for dead

How can I stop the darkness?

If I lost all my light

I have nothing to cut away the shadows

Besides my dying might 

When I fade away into the darkness

The world will never be the same

Even if I hate to admit it

I always thought of it as just a game

When you choose to die it wasn't over

But you got a second life

A chance to start all over

And get rid of every strife

I was wrong to say the least

To think that I could start all over

I'm just a mess of lies in a ticking time bomb

With no end to the fuse in sight

The pain and the punishment just never ends

It just brings more to hurt your friends

When you're gone it leaves you with regret

Cause you're never truly out of debt

So many with unfinished business

So many that leave the light

All of them had to against their will

But I just never fit that bill

You may think of me as a hero

You may think of me as a way to heal

You may think of me as a reason to stay alive

It all heals you

But I can never open up my eyes

I never wanted to be a hero

I never wanted to be the reason you're fighting for

I never wanted to hurt anyone

Besides me cause I can't move on

So I have to change

I have to make a stand and fight

No matter how much I don't want to

I have to help you through this fight

When you want to go

I won't be far behind

When you are done with me

Just throw me aside

Then I can finally go

And just move on

Into an empty place in the great beyond

Whether it's today

Or tomorrow

It could be years

But I won't be far though

Just get rid of me when you're done

So I can be forgotten

And no longer a burden

I'm going to go someday

I'm going to disappear

One way or another we all are

Where we go after is what matters

You all want to go to your Heaven or Hell

Some want to stay alive and never die

I just want to go somewhere else

Somewhere dark and quiet

With no one else

This isn't goodbye

But this isn't my saying hi

I just want to leave it all behind

So you all can go on with your lives

When I die