Mithzan X Reader Drama Creator

Cap : 10??

THIS PART GETS somewhat VERY DEEP AND DEPRESSING IM WARNING YOU NOW

i woke up and in my house. max had dropped me off. i get up and look in the mirror i hate how i look i start to think which isn't good cuz it will end up in crying i see my self as ugly but everyone says im beautiful i remember this saying my old best friend said all the time to boost her self confidence

Mirror, Mirror on the wall...
It doesn't matter if im short or tall...
If i have skinny legs or my hips are wide...
It only matters who I am inside...
Blue eyes, brown eyes, black or green...
What makes me most beautiful cannot be seen...
When you look at me, don't judge me by my parts...
The most beautiful thing about me is my heart.

i have been lining to myself, im not happy, everyday it gets harder, everyday its like a nightmare progressing on, everyday is another prayer echoing from my bones asking god to take me now, everyday i close up more, everyday it gets more impossible, everyday i feel myself die some more, everyday i lay on my bed wondering how ill leave this hell, ive never felt this much pain.
Im hungry, but i can't eat, Im tired but i cant sleep, Im sad but i can not cry, suicidal but i can't die

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I didn't even notice I was on my floor in a ball crying faaakkkk I didn't have the energy to stop crying I call max
-in convo-
"Hey y/n what's up?"
*sniff*" nothing can you tell Adam I can't come in today?"
"Y/n are you 100% sure you are ok? And I will tell Adam"
"Yea I'm fine" *sniff*
"Ok well I'll tell Adam we can't come in today and I'll be over in 10"
Before I could refuse he hung up
I sighed and changed into joggers and a tank top with a pull over hoodie

I texted max that the door was unlocked and I plopped in bed I sighed and buried my face in my pillow
Max picked me up and put me into a hug I hugged back and he broke the hug
"What's wrong"
"Nothing" I sighed cuz he is gunna bug me till I tell him
"C'mon don't lie to me"
"I just don't feel like I'm good enough"
He instantly hugged me I hugged back
"Don't say that or even think it y/n"
I just hugged him tighter and started to cry
I eventually stopped crying but I didbt break the hug I lifted my head to look at max and he looked at me we stared into each others eyes and inched closer till out lips touched

We broke the kiss and I hugged max again and looked to see what time it was
2pm
"Max I gotta meet a friend in a hour..."
"Who and where?"
"Mini and Starbucks he is the only guy in the crew that made in effort to see how I am "
He sighed I texted mini to see who he is taking he is going to bring Brian and Tyler he said I cab bring max
"And you are busy at 3 also" he looked at me confuzzeled (heh)
"You are coming with me" he smiled
-time skip to getting ready-
I'm in my bathroom with my clothes I have a 'don't talk just walk' shirt and skinny jeans I have my Nike shoes and I put my hair into a messy look I don't bother with makeup and we leave
I opened the Starbucks door and saw mini max went to get out drinks and I walked tword the 5 guys. Wait 5? Who is the 5th? I looked at him and I didn't realize who they were till they spoke
Spoon and smii7y omgggg!!!!! CALM IT Y/N they won't careeeee
"Mini where are they?"
"They should be here any minute calm yo self"
I hit minis shoulder
"Minutes turn into seconds " he jumped
"Dude why did you get such a small table?" He shrugged
"Well... Where are me and max going to sit?" He shrugged again
"Ok well I have an idea." Max put his arm around my shoulder and handed me my coffee
"Alright follow me in your cars. " they all looked at me confused I just smirked and ran to the car
I drove to my old home it was huge I took them to the theater room and we sat there just admireinf the room
"Wow y/n why haven't we seen this place before?"
"I don't like it here... But when I am around others I focus on them and not this" I sighed and felt arms around my waist I knew it was max so I put my head on his shoulder

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Hey sorry its short but I just wrote it so you wouldn't have to wait so long but I am thinking about doing a face reveal. Anyway bia