"What did you say?"
"I said I love you, Matt. I should have seen it sooner. I've love you from the beginning. Your laugh, your smile, your personality, your everything. Matt, I want to kiss you every chance I get. I want to hold you in my arms whenever I can. I want you, Matt."
Matt turned around and hugged me. I pulled him off of me and lightly pulled his head up towards me. I leaned in and kissed him. His lips were so soft. I loved it. This is what I needed.
I licked his bottom lip, and he opened his mouth, letting me slip my tongue in. I loved this feeling. I loved being with Matt. I picked him up and set him on the bed. I crawled over him, using one hand to hold his head, the other to keep my weight off of him.
I kissed his jawline softly, him giving a sound of pleasure. I kissed down to his neck, trying to find his sweet spot. I knew I found it when he gasped, so I sucked a bit on the spot. I started to bite at his skin, but not hard enough to hurt. I stopped when I heard him chuckle. I looked up at Matt. He just shook his head. Was I doing something wrong?
"Nate, I love you, but you don't need to go soft on me. I'm not all that fragile." I just shook my head. I'm not going rough with him. This was his first time, and mine if I'm being honest, and I wanted him to remember it as something good. Something amazing. Not something painful.
"Are you sure you want to do this? I don't want to hurt you or pressure you into anything."
"I'm ready. I want this." I nodded and started to pull off his shirt. Once I finally got it off, I kissed his chest, once again, softly. I kissed the whole way down to his v-line. He moaned. I stopped, though.
"Are you alright?" I shook my head. I needed to do something first. I sat up and grabbed his arm. I saw the scars from when he cut. I leaned down and kissed every little scar gently. I looked up and Matt was crying. I just smiled. I went up and kissed him.
"I'm alright, now." He smiled and nodded. I went back down to his hips. I kissed him there and unbuckled his pants. I wanted this to be perfect. I pulled off my shirt and pants, so we were only in our boxers. I leaned back and kissed him again. I loved the touch of his lips on mine. I just couldn't get enough of it.
I slowly palmed him, gaining a moan in return. I slowly pulled down his boxers. I went down and slowly started to rub him. He moaned, louder than I expected, so I leaned forward and started to suck. I didn't know if I was doing it right, but I'm assuming I was by the sounds Matt was making. I got up and pulled off my own boxers. I sat on the bed and Matt sat on my lap. Matt was kissing me when he grabbed me and started to ride me.
I moaned. He was screaming my name. This is what I wanted. This is what I had been waiting for. This is what I was avoiding the past few months. This... This is who I loved.
