It's been almost 24 hours. I've only left to eat. I told my viewers that I wouldn't be uploading, neither Matt, and they understood. I haven't slept in the time, even though I was so tired.
I sat for a few more minutes when I heard my name. "Nathan Sharp? You can see Matthew, now."
I literally jumped out of my seat. I walked into Matt's room. He looked terrible. His face was all red. The arm with the IV in it had scars everywhere. He wouldn't look at me. I didn't care. I ran up and hugged him. He was crying, but so was I. After a few minutes of hugging him, he hugged back. I looked at him. He still wouldn't look at me.
"Why'd you do it?" He just shook his head. He wouldn't talk to me. "Matt, please. You can talk to me. I'm here for you."
"I just couldn't do it anymore. I thought you liked me. I can't live without you. I love your hugs, your comfort. You make me feel whole."
"I-I'm sorry, Matt. I just don't feel the same way."
He nodded. "I understand. I'm sorry. Just, don't leave me. I don't trust myself enough to not hurt myself." I nodded.
"Okay. How about we go home?"
"Alright."
When the nurse came back, we got everything signed, they prescribed Matt antidepressants, and we left. I wasn't going to make him take the medicine. He's not usually depressed.
They said his legs were weak and would be for awhile, so I carried him bridal style to the car. I think he feel asleep on my chest, so I just let him go. I opened the car and carefully set him in. On the way back home, I looked over at him. He was so cute when he slept. Maybe I do like him... No, I don't.
We got back home, and I picked up Matt. He woke up when I picked him up out if the car. "I'm sorry you have to carry me."
"No, it's fine. I think I'm enjoying it." He smiled. It was the first time I'd seen him smile in awhile. I smiled back. I opened the door and I sat on the couch, Matt on my lap. "Hey, Matt. I'm still sorry for breaking your heart. I never meant it like that."
"It's okay. I'm feeling better anyways." I started playing with his hair. It was so soft and beautiful. I think he enjoyed it, too.
I closed my eyes and soon fell asleep with my best friend in my arms.
