Drifting Away

Chapter 6: Another Day, Another Argument

Today, I thought everything would be fine. I was wrong. Is it so bad to ask to be called 'babe'? Isn't it something that boyfriends should call their girlfriends? well Adam thinks that i don't need to be called Babe. So my night is horrible.

The other night he got mad because I said the name of a band. A BAND. Lets just say that after what he said to me, I will never have any Self Confidence ever again. I need self confidence. I don't need to be put down. I want to have a better relationship with Adam. I just don't know if that's possible anymore.

Adam thinks that he is so above me. I really should break up with him. I don't want to, But what if its for the best? Or maybe I should call a break. That will give him time to think if he really wants and needs me in his life. Maybe He will change. I want him to need and want me.

During the first week that Adam and I were dating, we seemed like the perfect couple. Then it all changed. We had fun the first week and then it just went downhill from there. I want that first week back so I can see what I did wrong. I want to know what I did wrong so I can fix it. I really love Adam and I want him in my life forever. But only if he can change and actually act like he Loves me for more than my body.

I really am afraid of losing Adam but I also want to be happy. Lately it has been really hard to be happy with Adam. He just messes up so much. And I always mess it up even more. I am usually the cause but sometimes i will be Joking and he'll get mad at me. I just don't know what to do anymore.