Dear Louis.

Entry 8

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Song: Amnesia by 5 Seconds Of Summer

                                                                                                                                                                    28th of January 2016

Dear Louis,
Remember when we first met? We were in the X-Factor bathrooms and I was freaking out because I was next to audition. You calmed me down and said I'll get through because I have an amazing and beautiful voice, but in reality you're the one with the most beautiful voice. I'll always remember that day because it was the day I met my soulmate. Remember when we both admitted we liked each other? It was the night when we got together in a band. We were on the bed in guest room of the my uncle's cabin, the rest were outside watching a film. You told me you liked me, you were so nervous and stuttering. It was quite adorable, I would always tease you about it and you would pout, making you even more adorable. I remember the big smile on your face after I told you the feeling was mutual. We had our first kiss then too. It was soft, sweet, and innocent. I will always remember the way your lips felt on mine, the way they tasted, sweet like vanilla. It felt like finally everything was the way it was suppose to be. You were my first real crush Louis Tomlinson. Remember the day we asked my mum and your mum if we can move in together? We were so nervous because we thought we wouldn't be allowed to. I remember the smiles on our faces as they said yes and we went apartment hunting. The same apartment that I'm still in and don't plan on leaving anytime soon. This apartment holds so many memories I'm just not ready to let go of. I drove by places we spent most of our time at, the places we shared many more memories that haunt me. It feels like your dead but in reality you're not. You're a call away, I see you everyday. But it's just not the same anymore. Things changed so fast, I can barely keep up. I remember everything Louis. Everything, good, bad, heartbreaking, tear-shedding thing. But sometimes I wish I didn't. Maybe it'll be easier if the two of us never got together. But other times I'm glad we did the things we did otherwise I would've gave all hope up on love. You're my one and only. But right now, I wish these things didn't exist, every little happy, heartbreaking detail, Louis. It would be easier to wake up with amnesia and forget about the stupid little things.

I love you, H

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All the love, E